I’m sorry for harping on this. However I feel like I need to say this. Yes, I want to get laid. I mean who doesn’t. But sometimes I wonder if sex and relationships seems are the only thing in life worth striving for, as if all we are programmed to do is mate, reproduce, and die. Seriously, its depressing. I can remember as a kid wanting more out of life than that. Now as a young adult, part of my depression stems from not being able to achieve it. Its as if the purpose of our lives is to fuck and then offer our selves to a new generation that will one day have to do the same. It just doesn’t feel right.
Not to mention how fucking sick I am of how society treats sex. Either its bad, sleazy, and negative or its the most important fuckin thing that not everyone gets to partake in it. I mean, really. We can’t find a happy fuckin medium? We can’t just let it be one of various ways to enrich one’s life? It has to be some sort of extreme? Look around you. How does one symbolize success other than either flaunting their good looks or their fuck partner in the same way they flaunt their wealth? It seems like all life is about is lording something over someone else. FUCK! And HELL, wanna get into feminism? Women are no different than trophies, symbols of status. Their traditionally valued for their beauty and innocence and paraded around like fancy cars and gold watches. On the flip side, men are valued only for their ability to succeed. Even today, we still have this feudal era mindset of men marrying for sex and status and women marrying for wealth and comfort. Hell, we still idealize it as innocent and wholesome. If anyone, man or woman, wants something different out of life, they’re often viewed as immoral. If someone hasn’t had the luck to achieve this way of life, they’re viewed as losers. As for love, it can’t really exist in a society where one is pressured in marrying and raising kids.
Even in a society where sex is basically everywhere, you can’t even go out and look for it, or at least doing so honestly. Oh yes, women posting sexy pics and even making videos on porn sites, and its so wrong for a guy to simply take notice. Yes, there are tons of guys who are disrespectful, but simply showing some attention when a woman puts her self out there shouldn’t be a bad thing. Yes, there is a right way to do so. And by the way, those same men who objectify women also mistreat other men. See below.
Hell, even how you treat others isn’t as important as fuckin. I suppose ethics is optional so long as you can lord sex or money over others. Like I said, sex is either evil or the only thing that matters. Either you are immoral for seeking it out or you don’t have to be fuckin descent person so long as you succeed. You can be a complete and utter asshole so long as you can flaunt your conquests around, whether you’re male or female. I have no problem if someone wants to be attractive and/or have lots of sex. Really, I don’t. However, that shouldn’t come before being descent.
I see so many topics about love or sex spells. “Will my ex come back to me?” “Will I get a girl friend?” “Will she fall in love with me?” Yes, I’m one of those people desperate for some romantic companionship. However, every so often, I see how that affects me. We are blessed with possibly the most beautiful thing the universe can give us, something that can enrich our lives beyond our imagination, and yet most of how we want to use it is to achieve material wealth and fuck. I’m not saying this is bad, but don’t we want more from life than this? Not to mention, imagine how it looks. Would I be attracted to someone so obsessed with sex and money? No! I only ask for what I can offer and only offer what I want. I want more out of life than wealth and sex. I want to be a unique entity in this universe, and even for a one night stand, by partner should be no different.
In a post I made regarding insecurities about sexuality and a desire to call on Lilith, I talked about some part of me I call the monster. Well, here it is. This is the monster, a beast rejected by this sex obsessed society and has decided that not only should it not be so judgmental regarding sex, but there should be more to life than sex. This is the monster in its full glory. Right here. Look upon me and quake in fear for you behold the monster. Though if you find him agreeable, then that’s okay too. Whether or not anyone likes it, sex is not only okay but its not the most important thing. And I will not be made to feel inferior just because I’m not some alpha male, just as no woman should feel inferior just because she’s not some awkwardly dis proportioned mannequin we see in Hollywood.
I’m writing this to get it off my chest. Who ever feels offended, oh well. Who ever feels inspired, then let your monster out.