Journals of Me Being Me

[Yanasiro]

Hello !
This is a journal from a strange journey and still going.
My start was the second start of my life. The day i’ve reborn, even a birth it’s not painless.
I’ve see many thing like the pillar of fire, and i still wonder who are the sisters of the flame, and the brother of the snake whom i’ve been told i’m affiliated with them. But hey who’s know. Anyway.
Since the day i’ve rebirth in a new psyche form. I’ve found some new ability. Like astral projection. I even try to look at the ‘‘Shadow of the wind’’ I’ve came to a place guarded with two being from each side, with a central door. I’ve came to open it, but i’ve been pushed a little back, since then i’ve forget about that. Don’t force it. Eventually.

I’ve travel in Russia i’ve been cut in half by ( i suppose) a chaman or what ever it is, because (hehe) my intention was not so good at the time. I’ve learn to run before to even walk. So i’ve been firing from all cylinders for quite a time. I’ve been traveling into the sea of Japan from some kind of reason i’ve encounter a being there too. With strange eyes.
I even pay a visit to Obama and a I’ve feel a cold hand grip my heart. I knew it’s was a warning but at the time i didn’t care as much. Well pretty reckless if i told you.
I pay a visit to the leader of russia, i’ve found (before i’ve read a book about that) his ‘‘counter part’’ is a chicken (I know it’s weird), but i’ve got a book confirm that more or less. Pinch of salt.

Eventually i’ve been dirty as a sword covered in blood. So I’ve got energertically sick from time to time (not now i’ve learn the hard way) When i’ve got sick really sick i’ve encounter a being like a nasty dog. This dog or what ever it is was tempted to rip my heart with his bite. I’ve feel his jaw came at like 3 cm of my heart trying to rip it off. I’ve been practicing a ‘‘silent prayer’’ for recovering from these sickness. I exchange my energy from my inside to the outside and the oustide in me. It’s my meditation of my own kind, It’s like the ‘‘Sage mode from Naruto’’ but in a form of a ‘‘silent prayer’’. I still do that.

I do not endorse any deity, just one I’ve been calling ‘‘Father’’ when i was a teen. Now since i’ve change from A to Z. I don’t call him at all. The Father was not the one’s like religious side it was another thing.

From that i’ve learn some valuable lessons, but on the hardest way.
Like take it easy be less warmonger even if i’m tempted some time.
Tempted because this world isn’t so easy and will not be so easy. Nothing will fall off like granted like a wish from a genie.
The more i’m getting older my lava get cooler too. And i’m happy with that.
Look at the stars when i can and what will come will if i works the way i wanted too. What will not will remains a mysterie. I could get along with that.

The next time i could write about the shadow hands or what ever. Frankly i do not know where to start about telling life, my life if so.

From now i work on being less chaotic way less chaotic and more sharp in my thing.
A soldier take care of his tool even if it’s tools are made to anything but love.

Sorry if it was a complete non sense or lunatic. It’s just the first time i open the doors to unknown people.
Have a great rest of week and Stay Strong !

P.S If i came back here i could write about my Path of Silence before my other birth.

[Yanasiro]

The Path of Silence.

It’s like a forteress of yours. Your inner voice is not there nothing is here. Even when you speak to someone thiking about this and this. No just listen and repond when necessary. The Silence is like a global observation of the world. You will recognize you more and more in the depth of silence.
If some of you have read the ‘‘Red Book’’ from Carl Jung it could give you some clues about that. At some point when you have gotten into the abyss of silence. You will pass some tought time for sure even doubt. At some point personnaly i’ve been in a house with some people for studies. I hated that place because i’ve never thrust them and (could be) they didn’t thrust me. Anyway i was in a total silence even deeper that i could do normally.

How bout why this silence ? It’s for the journey of the soul and crowning your soul too !
I’ve been tempted by love for some woman i’ve knew. But at the time on my journey i could not love a person entirely. Because MY soul wanted Me and only me.
Anima for a Female counterpart and Animus for a Male and vice versa for each one of you.
You’ve gotta learn youself more than you could expect. From the Silence could grow some seed of knowledge you are the great observer of the world and your inner world of your self.

Another side effect of the Silence. You gonna feel the weight the weight of it all. The Pain the all from human being. Like a dead weight on your body. I’ve call that my armor of hatred. Witch was not all hatred but a side effect. This anger was the emotion of (i hate that term) the weight of the world.

When you have cross the way the only thing to do is to Crown your soul. A king without crown is not a king right ?!
You gotta wear that crown and even pass to YOUR person to YOUR Soul. Because you’ve gotta give birth to (guess what?) your soul.

Even after i’ve give birth to my soul the king has gone you could say. But it’s not. The hard way is still to come. Because the YOU before is gone. The next you with you ‘‘give birth’’. Is some what different like big time. Carl Jung stated in his book. The part you’ve gonna missing or growing up when you are a different being is to ‘‘Steal it’’ from left to right and beyond.

Carl Jung stated also The One who seem to be now souless (it’s not really not) will be protected from what i call the Great Above. Because Jung came from his father, parent who’s was religious in a church and all and Jung was confronted from what he’s has known from his point of view.
I do not think you’ve get a free pass like protected from everything. Because the rules are in the smaller details. For my interest i’m still in the process the learning. I’ve started like a hurricane throwing some flames and everything i could get. Now it get more gently and more comfy, but still with thorns.

Even the most saddest part of this is : When you’ve look around you your friend and everything before was so vibrant and shiny and all. All this become One. Like a flat horizon. For me I could still laught at a good joke and other thing. But in some way you’ve become (for me at least) more and more detached from this world. Like in my eyes you’ve could get all the money in the world all the virtues and all. In my eyes it’s still worth the same as the homeless guy who’s want some food for his dog or drugs.

I noticed to the ‘‘Time’’ is from what you’ve seen you’ve need hours and minutes to job and some kind of utility thing. BUT the time itself it’s a value you’ve done to that. What if you’ve become One with the time. Like marching hand in hand with the time itself. This is what i’ve done for me.

The most remarquable thing is i’ve read that book The Liber Novus last year. And i was totally shock. Like a H bomb blown me away. Because I took a path but different in sort of ways from what he has write. When i’ve read that book after i’ve finish it i’ve told to myself. IF I had this book like a decade or more ago what would happen ? I’ve came to conclusion if pure speculation of What If and If Not.

Well that was ‘‘it’’…

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o there !
Couples of month has pass by. I’ve read some books of psychologie of Carl Jung.
Some points has retained my attention like some sort of What If ?!
The first one is Me as a being, I have my head in the cloud and the feet deep down below. Far from each other. I’m whole in many sense of the term. The loneliness has never stop and will never stop. Can’t feel some joy and all. Like sentimental being = zero or almost. Speaking of feeling. I only got the ‘‘normal’’ mode. Like same as rainning day and sunshine one’s. All equal on the same point of perspective.

If the whole we are living in. The whole could be within us ? In our head each one’s his cosmology. All that kind of stuff,

It will be like 15 years I’m in a perpetual trail. Like the serpent trail. Many diety in some ways has abandonned me after the shift of what i was.
I still don’t know if the Horned God still watch me. Or if i still get the help from the Sisters Of the Flame.

To clarify a little bit. I’ve call Father like 2 years ago. I’ve been in a field with this being even if i didn’t see his full face. I’ve follow his jaw line until the chin. I’ve found that beautiful. The father i’ve call some time is the Horned One.

And another thing i’ve been wondering. If a black soul full of hatred and anger. IF and only IF his violent side has been obliterated. This black soul is still dark enough or the true roots of anger and hatred is still there ?
I’ve lost my hatred and anger but strangely it runs deep underground. I could not describe it. It’s like another way to Brute force to refine it sort of.

I’ve got so many memories of many thing. Like why Zeus would have wanted me in his ‘‘team’’ and why I’ve saw in the sky some like part of shiny colors like Fire Rainbow. And harpies in dream and all that stuff. I could go on and on but will not today.

… To Be Continue.

…To be continued.

[Yanasiro]

I’ve got many questions insolved about the past. Back like 15 years ago. I’ve release all the hatred i’ve got one hit wonder. I’ve (for context) in during a long time i’ve never swear in my head only in spoken words. And THIS day i’ve had enough so i’ve swear big time. Each swear my head was moving each swear. In the end i’ve smashing my head into a dash board of a car like many time full of rage. I’ve got a cigarette in my hand who’s GTF out any where. It was about 23PM or midnight something. Anyway it was full night. I’ve saw at the horizon the sun goes up. The sky turn white and i’ve saw a white rising sun like. I’ve told to my self. WHAT I’VE DONE AGAIN ?

Another thing strange, at the beggining i’ve saw a multitudes of yellow spirit like. They were like dozen like an army of firefly. And this day i’ve told my friend. ‘‘Yo did you see this army of firefly’’. He told me no man i dont see them. I was like WTH happen. That day i’ve lost my energy in my ears i’ve placed. It vanished like a WHOOOP. I’ve been confuse for a minutes or two.

Even strange. I’ve came back from the same spot I get off the car sitting on a chair outside. And BAM I’ve been drag in like one second into witch i call ‘‘In between’’. Across here and nothing. When this has happened they we’re car in the street passing by. I could not hear these car. I’ve been hearing some multitudes of birds like many birds. I’ve look where are these birds and why i can’t hear these car ? This one’s of the big days.

And i’ve saw some rainbow part in the sky like two spot in the sky. Rainbow colors all that stuff. I’ve been like WTH is that shit it’s not even raining at all no cloud it a full blue sky. I’ve told to someone. Did you see these tiny spot of rainbow in the sky ? He’s told me nah. I’ve been okay that’s weird.

Around this summer i’ve been at a outside concert show. There was a long alley of step. I’ve was climbing them by two. And (I’ve been placing weight from somewhere on me like energy) that day was like all the weight in this time. That was weirds AF i could say. I’ve got the impressions to weight like the double or even more i was.

All this experiment i’ve always got a pre feeling of something would happen in a matter of time.
The most wildest thing i’ve experiment was a kind (for me) do or die. I stand up go outside and BAM. They (i call them they because i dont know them) pulled me in All in one and all in nothing. I’ve lost my orientations and all. This time it was hard. I didn’t recognize the earth the where i was living and all. I’ve did a 360 on my self to figure it out i was like okay this is where i live and this is the ground (ahah). I know it’s weird.

Sorry it’s not in chronological order.

It’s enough things weird for the days !

[Yanasiro]

The other late, late night. I’ve been doing my meditation. I fixed my attention to the core of the earth visualizing her core. Her core i’ve been holding like single piece. I’ve see my aura pulsing in waves purple. Like a nice purple. It was cool i was deep into the ground. It was the first time i’ve achive the purple color. Usually i’m more green blue and bright light. But G. B. Bright Light are more usual. I was when the purple came out deep in my meditation like my energy envelop me entirely. It was cool and a nice moment. I’ve see another thing like a rain of shooting stars. Like a shower or bright rock haha. And i’ve plunge deep into the core of the Mother planet.

It was a nice experiment.

[Yanasiro]

When i was a teenager, usually the week-end off. I’ve been siting on a comfy chair in the back of the appartement. I’ve call this place Not In and Not Out. And many time i’ve got to meditate. One of many moment was this. I visualize a forest of big tree with green lichen on it. I was roaming there. I’ve see many time the print on these tree of claws of a big brown bear. At the time young and foolish i was. My goal was to beat that big bear. Some time i’ve came to this place with my bare hands and some time with a little knive. And it was a total desaster. Like the bear was like the mountain of nature force and me. Me the guy at the time with a ferocious temper. When i’ve been meditate that. Like the first step was okay cool calm and warm. More and more i descent to the forest and i’ve encounter the bear. BAM my mental shifted from warm and cool. To dark and full force. Concentrations to the maximum i’ve could. Because my life depend on it. Each time.
My goal was to beat is head down like rip his jaw out. It was like a regular day outside fluffy cloud and blue sky. But inside the place Not In and Not out. There was a total dark thing and it was me. When i’ve goes deeper into that my heart goes nuts. There was a signal of my heart of Hey stop that you’ve been too far. Or maybe i was putting too much force from my head to my heart. Maybe this is why i dont know.

I’ve spoken with a friend at the time of what i’ve been experiencing i’ve tought every one do that.
What am i to think what people think. So the guy has laugh at me like so you try to beat a bear, with bare hands ?

I’ve roaming today in that woods of mine. I’ve saw 3 cubs and i’ve look further away and on a tree with a door of stone. With a strange symbol on it, i couldn’t figure it out from now,

I’ve saw a visions of me with the skin of something on. Right hand holding a staff and i’ve did my paint on me.

I didn’t know until yesterday it was a thing with the post of Mulberry with the shamanic thing.
I’ve did some energy transfer with animals too but that is for another day.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o there wanderer.

So for the last days i’ve been wondering one thing i would call like this : Methodist.
Ready for a ride ? Well yes or no dont matter.
So what is a Methodist. I made some observations quite a bit on my self and other people around. You could call that the data from the Great All Above or what ever you may call that.
I call that Methodist. But what it is and what it eat in winter ?
When a person die or what ever die in this world, his personal data some quite a bit remains around us for a long long time. Some people can get access to this keys of knowledge.
I call that key. Because each one’s of us got his own key right ?
So when a person seem to be distant or what ever you may call that, or even a little fuzzy when you talk to them. I suspect they got acces to the ‘‘keys’’ from the All Around Us.
Why Einsteins and all great brain from this world has done in some way, way beyond their time.
Because they were ( i know bright) but they get the help from the All Around. Each one’s of them who’s can get access to this keys of knowledge are unique to each one of them. Their affinitiy or the ways they feel good with that.

I suspect they can read for them the future and read as well the past with ease,

Why i come to this today.
Because i’ve had access to this key of knowledge. How can i do Qi gong and other stuff without reading a SINGLE thing about that. I’ve been like a asian dude praticing all kind of stuff. I was at the time thinking every person on earth has the same diversiting mind like me. But it was not. People are different just like me.

I’ve got i would call like this my Iron lungs my arms of steel wire and all that stuff i’ve placed with Qi Gong in a matter of less than 5 years of doing what ? Nothing but smiling at myself I was my own Sun. Where i get this knowledge ? I call that the instinct and all. But in fact it was more subtle than that. I’ve get access to this keys, they were what at the time the need i’ve crave. So i took and it works well very well.

But how do you practice the opening key is what for me remains a mysteries. From what i’ve gathered it seem to be some people with attentions disorder they are ‘‘in their head’’ and moody they are maybe in this realm of keys.

Will they open them ? I dont know if they will but IF SO only IF SO. The information they gathered in this realms of keys. They practice for them a cult of secrecy an absolute bunker of concrete. They think if they speak about what they know and how they have known it. It will DISEAPEAR. But in fact these keys of knowledge want to be shared and diluted with people.

I know they are shy to spoke about that or be judged by that. They may surprise you by how far they goes in this.

Anyway enough writing non sense.

[tornribbon1402]

it’s awesome to learn about all of those stories and memories from all of your lifetimes … and nothing wrong with always being yourself !!!

no matter what lifetime you are in , make sure to do the things that make you happy , the things that make you feel like … you . like listening to your favourite song , or eating your favourite snack , or drawing your favourite character .

because when you will look back on your new lifetime that you completed , like you’ve mentioned doing over and over again , you will be happy that you lived it to the fullest , and were the happiest that you could be … !

and also , don’t forget to protect yourself … !!!

[Yanasiro]

Thx will do.

Hell-o Wanderer.

When i see some kind of thing like master of the wind fire and element all that thing.
Did you know when you become One you can. Like imagine yourself in a pool. You create wave with your arms. If i told you when you do that with the Wind (for me it’s the wind) you can create a wave of wind just like water. For me i expluse my energy to the wind and it obey. Some time a nice breeze or a strong one. But from what i learn. When a thunder storm pass here. For quite a long time i was like GO Thunder go Wind and Lightning full force. I consider thunder storm like living entity of their own. I was saying to them. Show Me What You Got. With my index pointing in the sky. You can when you are One sense the hard rain when it’s gonna fall off and stop. Maybe i sense the atmospherical pressure i dont know.

Surprise this year i try to do the inverse route, instead of giving them the power, i withdraw. Like the wave i write above. Instead of blowing up the energy into the element, you create a wave trough. And I need many more testing for that, but it way harder than just go full on.

And also for alchemy for one’s of you doing that, you can mix water and air, it create electricity, your energy you’ve gotta feel that like lightning or something like that.

Note 1. when you gotta goes like Riding On The Wind, you’ve gotta need water, and if you do that on daily basis, you can burn out fast.

Note 2. I have a reload time between each pulse on the wind, like a minute or two i can’t go like total mad, I just can’t because i got a limiter or some kind off.

Well that enough.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o Wanderer.

If some of you did some meditations in the early stage and seeing nothing or nothing would appear in your mind.
The solutions i’ve got for that is when you notice in your meditation a certain back up. Like your like 2 seconds or more behind. Well your on the right way. To sense some thing or even more. You need the gap of 2 seconds or more depend of your experience to see. See what lies behind these layers. When you are more accomodate to that you can do that the gap all day long. When you are in need to go. You’ll see these visions in your meditation.

I notice to myself this week when my heads are in full alignment. I’ve had none person to share that, but instead i’ve made a giant like a temple in a mountain. The wall was high and the top finished arched. It was coool. It happen regularly when my heads are in perfect balance. When it happens i feel like the time is suspended, and it has a weight for that. When i did that vision. I did what i should do. After that my heads are free to goes where they want.

Edit. To add to your meditations with the numbers of seconds you want in delay. Depend of your experience. You should be able to see shadow. About shadow. I do that rarely these days. Because i dont wanna be dirty all the time. But with the delay when you visit a person you will see some bright white light, shinning like stars. You could see one or many. But you could get caught too if the other sense you. They could knock you back. It will happen some days for sure.
When you get caught. They can hit you like a psychic attack. Your body do a shadow dodge. Like a uncontrolled spasm. In fact your body dodge the hit and it’s all right no fear in sight.

For example i even pay a visit to a ‘‘called high witch’’. Because one’s friend of mine told me she’s was not nice at all even worst. I pay a visit to that woman. I sense her spirit and i compress it to the simple expressions. You can feel the fear they had. And man the knock back was thunderous. I hear a clap of thunder when she hit me full force. Even the next day i was dirty AF. I’ve been poisoned, my energy was, for half a day. Before i did my thing to clean myself.

Well that enough.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o Wanderer.

Today the topic i would like to adresses is about The Memory. I’ve noticed on my self my memory work with a cycle.
The way my memory fonction i could absorbs quite many informations during the cycle. The longest one’s i’ve got is more than one year of accumulate informations.
From what i’ve noticed the cycle more long it is, more the drop will be hard.
I noticed with my memory a reset happen. During that states the brain reset. It could be strange for someone’s never experienced it. During the reset of the memory. Everything seem to be useless, actions meaning and all a big zero. In that state i must be alert because i can forgot usual data. Like my bank nip ( it happen one time ahah). When the brain reset you are in a neutral zone, until the cycle operate again.

How many of you have noticed the brain memory works with a cycle ? How many month you can stay in that states ? How long the reset of your brain take ?

I could not be the only one’s seem to have a memory cycle and a soft reset.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o Wanderer.

The ways of magic works it’s not entirely based on logic. Some time (alot) is based on unreason.
You must think every thing must have a reason. But if not what do you think ?
When come to magic you must release the Chaos you’ve had inside, Chaotic at first glance, but in chaos give order. You must dance on that. You must love your own soul like the most precious thing ever. You must cherish more your own living by yourself. Because none of them will be on the same road as you.

Why you must think, why some gibberish ?
Because these gods you may think off, are nothing if i don’t think of them, they exist because i give them attentions. But what IF i’m the ruler of my own ? What if i decide to stand of my own and not rely on any kind of diety ?

I’ve been living for my own for quite a long time, i would not trade that for any kind of belief or endorsing any crest or anything else.
The trails you’ve made by you it’s only made by you. The garden of yours will give you the fruits you wanted and will be your own Eden.
You can trim as much as you want and give space for all you want. The only member of your own temple is You. Not the divinity you are working for or (slave ?!) the one you may pray for.

The smaller may be small, but he’s the only one to know what tall and unmeasureablle is.

Well that enough.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o Wanderer.

This week i’ve done a experiment for me. I’ve got some experiment about the wind and some other stuff. About this summer who’s has past, i’ve write some post above. With the wind i’ve focused my attention in a periphery from where i’m and another place. I’ve been more or so. Like training wise. I’ve said post above about the wind needing water. Instead of focusing on what i’m confortable with. I’ve decided to go in a much larger zone a huge zone. It only last like a couple of minutes or so. I’ve fried like a bacon strips, from when i’ve finish my thing. The next morning my energy my Tchi was on low level. It might have work’s or no, time will tell.

Did you know, intentions like you’ve focus your attentions like no restrain of doubt and all. You can ask almost every thing from the Great All Above. And it will mostly respond.

Another thing i’ve noticed. Like some of you said ‘‘Thank You’’. DONT EVER SAID THAT. In your head it’s like an Okay, Or Amen. Speak Thank you. With your mouth. Never in your head. When you’ve said that in your head the wheels of yours stop. It simply stop. The wheels need to goes on and on. The power of the words and the intention behind it.
The wheels need to spins no matter what. When it stop (for me) It could create a distortions and it’s not great.

When it come to the wheels. I’ve see that like the every one wheels of doom. Like if a person around you doing some bad actions. You could some time, focus on their wheels. You’ve gotta spin it fast. More faster then the person who’s got his own. And after that it become uncontrolable and it could crash. How ?! Simply put some weight in it. Add some force. The person will knock himself down. Simply with the forces you’ve had added to the wheels.

But it have a But.

When you’ve gotta decide to play the balance. Must wash your hands. Stay clear and you’ve did what was right. Don’t let the doubt playing in your head. The doubt is the cycle killer and the most hard to take. You must never doubt. You’ve did what was right at the time. The dice goes on. So be it.

Another final thing. You’ve must think by One. Two it cancel itself. And Three it goes on.
If you wanna throw something go by three. Three words or a multiple of it. Go by three.
Choose the words you’ve like by three and cast it. With the help from the Great All Above. With the intention you’ve put behind with no doubt. Go all in. You could take the same words for the same thing no matter what. It’s up to you. When you feel it’s the moment DO IT. And cast it once. And let it flow in the Great Above. Pay attention to the result.

Edit. By three. Your intention has to be the spark. The Great Above need to do the rest. Like a request but ordonate. Never beg or demand. You’ve ordered. He reclaim. No matter what it is.

Well that enough.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o Wanderer.

The smaller may be small, but he’s the only one to know what tall and unmeasureable is.
From one’s of my last post. Let me tell’s you what i think about that.
Your energy even if you’re a tall person or what ever the type, the energy from what you have must be small. From what I notice. Mine is almost the size of the point of a pencil, or a needle.
Because you can make taller smaller, it will become more powerful. You can be surprised.
Also, you put all the force you have into just a single point the size of a pencil.

Because i’m been told you’ve too small. But taller it dilute the power i’ve got.
I tested the greater one’s and it simply dilute for me, it doesn’t work.

But how to perceive the energy you can put any where you want ?
When you lays on your bed, and focus on the tips of your fingers or the edge of your feets toes.
And feeling the blood pulsing in them, like calm wave. You’re on the right ways. Because you have move your energy to sense them. I’ve noticed mine works only one ways. I can’t sense both my hands and my toes. I can’t separate in two, anyway.

From that point you’ve can say’s you got your own energy you can put where you wanted.
But how you develop that energy of your own. Maybe it’s called the third eyes, or other.
I simply write down from what i’ve gathered, and noticed.

Well that enough.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o Wanderer.

I don’t know if many of you have experiencing some what i call, The Wings Of Flames or Wings of Fire or even the Wind of Flame. I call that this way. But it’s like a massive surge of energy like you are surfing on a wave. And when this happen when the night call. I usually see in my visions stroboscopic light in white. I’ve been told these are spirit roaming around. It happen rarely but when it happen it’s huge and full force. It’s like you are taking coffee like the ultra dose, but no abuse of coffee here.

Yesterday night. I did what i call the Dive. I dive into the earth like and roaming around. Goes to sleep. And wake up this morning at the speed of sound. I think this is the result of what i’ve done this week about me. Saturday during the day i’ve contemplate my own self. Not in the sense of brag or what ever. Just standing at my own being and contemplate the thing I’am.

Well that enough.

[Yanasiro]

Hell-o Wanderer.

This who’s gonna follow is some UPG from some experiment i’ve done and still recording for my interest only.

For like a month or so i’ve been wondering what could i learn from black hole what could i sense.
From this point i’ve been contemplating these ‘‘things’’. So at the start my tought was primitive like facing the representations of what it is. Early night the other day i was listening the radio. They invited a eminent researcher of (ahha) black hole ! So i’ve been like cool let’s see what it gonna bring new to my primitive tought. So she’s got some questions from the radio host. One has captivate my attentions was a theory. The theory is about their data in calcs some black hole could have a ring around them. To lead to a Worm Hole. So in a matter of second my primitive tought has rocketed like big time. I’ve been like Hey ! How about doing the mental representation of this ring and do (more or so) an astral projection into this. If only If something could enter there, some kind of stuff could get out ? What i could learn from this kind of thing if they are there. And well at the start of the operation it was normal like nothing to see from my boat. Some minutes after i’ve been more calm to dive. Like taking what it emerge from this. Bim bam i’ve been like in front of ‘‘something’’. Because I’ve feel that. It was not bad not good either. Like a neutral something but, with a weird questionning about me or what ever it was. So at this point I’ve looking more about what it was. Also work on the telepathy (I hate call that telepathy) I prefer the ghost speaking. I hate working with that because the monkey mind of mine is pretty well undercontrol. Sometime it could get in my ways and i hate that. Some disruptions i dislike.

Gotta clean my mess and we’ll see. I could just has feel a nasty bug from there but hey it’s the cost of trying something. If i tried nothing i would get nothing.

From this operation will take an hold but has took my interest. Will return to that point or modified it a little bit more. Like fine tuning the mix.

For the questions you may ask. Since i was a teen i liked these thing, the black matter and all.
But this year the start of this route was the Eye of Jupiter and lead me there.

Well that enough.