November 5, 2018 11:34 AM (Europe: Paris), November 5, 2018 2:34 AM (America: Los Angeles)
To note: I decided to do two exercises instead of just as both are relatively short and can be done in conjunction with one another. After that there’s exercise 6 left before the recepit/innitation that comes with the first flame.
Exercise 4: This exercise is according to Koetting taken from Franz Bardon’s work, you invoke divine light into you and then expel it.
Here’s how it went down, I imagined a white orb instead of a golden initially that were casting its light down on the top of my head, as the orb lowered down to me the buzz and the feeling of pressure in my sahararah chakra increased very noticeably, from there it hit the top of my head I continued to “push” or funnel it down through my head and into my chest right into the Anahata chakra it became a large golden orb for a bit then I allowed to flow or rather disperse and flow into the other parts of my body, encasing me in a bright white light. As I saw this internally as an onlooker on the outside and the light continued to grow in terms of force and volume internally a high pitched ringing could be heard in my ears. I associate this with some sort of awakening of what I do not know, after sitting for a moment allowing the energy to grow relaxed my head and allowed it to fall back and released the energy through the mouth. As I exhaled The vision internally became pitch black for a brief moment then my internal vision returned and I found myself gazing at the living room where I sat form the ceiling.
I decided to pull back and I did notice that I felt a little off, like I had forgotten to breath normally for a bit, however I thought the energy expelling part would be more noticeable, becaue it wasn’t it a breath later and the above just happened. I decided that wasn’t good enough and maybe it wa smy imagination so I repeated the whole thing and the same thing again in the same way, I think I am going to need to either relax more or just repeat the exercise until I can pick up the thickness of the energy once it leaves me.
Exercise 5: This exercise consists of vibrating three god names: (1). El Shaddai; (2); Yod He Vave He; (3) Sat Nam.
I’ve done this exercise before so didn’t need the pratice round because I sort of got the idea but this exercise went quite well yet not. What I mean is as I vibrated: El Shaddai - the sound was clear but it was like the name itself for me was empty, it didn’t carry any weight like some names do, if I would say Amaymon the hairs on my arm would stand on end because his name invokes power. I think I am going to need to do some reserach about the name to help assume the essence of the name, however I remember correctly El-Shaddai is one name of GOD and it means GOD the almighty (Gud den allsmäktige in Swedish), I guess its my general opposition towards he concept of GOD, the christian one that is. I was taught if you speak about the christian GOD is should be caps as it is the one and only, the lower case god: means a god but not the GOD but that’s just uncessary fluff that no one or rather few people even remotely cares about.
After vibrating the amount of times the curriculum suggested didn’t do much, so I’ll try again tomorrow or later today. This time with a different pitch as I am sure the pitch you vibrate the name in has an effect on me as it will connect me to the god in question.
The second name was according to the book: Yod He Vav He (Yod He Vau He) - it pretty much according to the some sources means the same thing as the above a name for god or YHVH, or well to be picky it isn’t much of a name its apparently the word for the key to creation, the universal law of polarities, the name can be disscted in three parts but enough trivia for now. At any rate it went a bit better than the last one as it didn’t felt completely empty, I vibrated pretty heavily as soon as I allowed the name to be released from me, vibrated as in energtic vibration, bio electric tingling sensations all over and I just dropped into myself quite a bit like I existed in some sort of vacum, it was just me and nothing else really I were able to hold that state all thw way throughout the duration of vibrating the name.
The last name: Sat Nam - is a name I’ve gotten into contact with before the name is vibrated in Kubdalini Yoga and it can be translated as: I am truth - or - Truth is my essence from: Sat: truth; Nam: together, according to:
Among others. A slight tangent - I first came into contact with the name in the Mastring Soul Traveling Course and from understood from there it’s the being who funnels the source through him and use it to create everything from the Formative Plane. The name itself for some reason I knew it belonged to India as I recognized the other names to be of Judeo Christian origin. At any rate this name was the most tangible and powerful experience so far in terms of this exercise.
Feel free to correct me on the meaning of each name of you want to as I mainly have heard the name and had it explained to me both verbally and searched for it on the internet, however that doesn’t mean that it’s correct, the meaning of the names that is.
You only vibrate this name once as I did however I can’t say I transformed but it was like I assumed a form that wasn’t mine, I became a being of light more or less, its very hard to put the feelings into words, its like I indeed for the duration of the name I wasn’t me anymore I was something else, the environment felt empty around but I wasn’t powerless, I was surrounded by my own light in a field of indigo light. It was strange to say the least I guess I could call this last vibration a success but I am not sure I would need a input from someone more experienced to tell, there I ask: @Yberioth, @Lady_Eva, @triptych, @Micah? Would you care to advice me or point me in the right direction or better yet, please tell me how I am doing in this exercise?