I guess this will be the place where I write about the strange things that happen to me.
I don’t want to clutter the forum with every little thing so I’ll record them here.
I expect most of them will be about dreams.
May 22 - Two dreams
I dozed off reading, and had two strange dreams. They are very unlike the usual dreams I have.
The first, I can’t remember the details except whenI felt pain in my right ear after I somehow became lucid. I remember breaking out of the ‘rules of dreaming’ and saying “woah”. Excited, I was ready to have some fun in the dream, (and blow things up). Cut to the next scene because I forgot what came in between.
Someone or something was holding my left arm and shaking me… out of me…except it wasn’t really my arm (spirit me’s arm, I can feel like my body is lying down). I felt like my spirit was trying to leaving my body. I sense that I need to twist and turn for my spirit to “dislodge” out of my body and try it.
It’s like something or someone really wants me to astral project, but I’m no good at it (never done it and I can barely sense energy, let alone do a basic banish or cleanse an area). The main deal breaker time is the pain in the right side of my ear. It’s so painful that I feel like it’s going to rupture my eardrum or something that after a while of trying, I stop. I would say pain in dreams is strange but recently I’ve been able to feel pain in them, which is both strange and worrying, as I’ve become less invincible. Dream me has enough awareness to know they can tank anything…until that’s not the case anymore…
The second dream is even curiouser. I am in my house… sort of which is a sign that something is very off, as I never dream of being in my house unless its to do with spirits.
The spirits… I can’t see them, but I can sort of vaguely make them out as very faint outlines in people form. They’re not any angels, they’re… well, ordinary people? In true dream fashion, there was a strange logic that I couldn’t defy or I would become lucid, but it went along the lines of… I had problems. So spirits would come to me and talk to me to help me with these problems. The way I would hear them, is through myself. Like I was a vessel? I recall one was to help me with manipulation, and I asked for such. We talked a great deal about some insightful things but alas, I forgot them… for the best probably.
The spirits came to address some people in my past who were in another room in the house and being annoying to me. I only asked one for their name and they said “David”, and I mused that it was a fairly ordinary name in my surprise (Admitedly I expected some fantasy name). There was one spirit who bluntly told me “I’m not really that good for you. You know what to do right?” Which I asked if it was banishing and cleansing, and they agreed but I couldn’t help but feel like I was being deceived. That if I banished I would make things worse. I woke up before things continued.
All in all very strange. I’m not sure why something is adamant for me to astral project for, especially since I’m a novice who can barely feel energy. Maybe to hijack my body while I am gone? I don’t particularly sense anything bad like fear, just confusion at what’s happening.
It scares me a little, especially the second dream. Awake me knows not to deal with other beings without being fully prepared, which makes me wonder what the hell that was all about, and I’m surprised nothing came to attack me. I’d say I was easy pickings.
My curiosity of occult came from a wake terror and I wanted to protect myself. But it feels I may have fallen down a rabbit hole.
I wonder if there’s anything I can do, or should be doing. The dreams are curious when they’re harmless but can be terrifying. I’d like to sleep soundly. I’ve done a bit of reading on astral projection, but it seems beyond me right now, so I really don’t know why the dream is so adamant to yoink me out. It’s not the first time either.
All I can do is continue meditating and visualisation practice. Heck, I’ve been slacking off. I might get to doing tarot again.