Journal 1: The Beginning of My Path

Look up Steve Nobel, listen to a few of his meditations. Try not to accept his dogma too much, he’s very alligned with the RHP.

He is an amazing person, though. Go check him out for some massive growth.

Just a tip; if you’re 100% in the game during the meditation, you’ll only need to do it once.

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Idk as i have alot already to do on my plate so let me see when i can do it then ill try doing it.

It’s calm, usually something you can lay down and listen to passively.

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Journal 8: Mental Healing

So yesterday because of certain reasons in my personal life i was really stressed and i couldn’t sleep properly so i took father Lucifer’s sigil as i kissed it with love and then told both father Lucifer (father figure) and mother Lilith (mother figure) i’m very deeply sorry for hurting someone close to them especially Mother Lilith cause it was necessary to do instead of keeping on lying to them about my true feelings cause i didnt wanna hurt them and after i did this well i have never felt this better in my life after a broken heart so i learned that if i talked to spirits about my issues sometimes they help me feel better so that was a new knowledge to me so next time if i’m ever feeling too much of an intense negtative feeling that can affect my daily life too i’m gonna ask their help. It’s ok to have any kind of emotions because it helps us in our life but if it’s really toxic for you and your daily life then i would suggest everyone to ask spirits for help by talking to them about your problems as if to a friend or any figure cause they’ll listen even if you think they don’t and help you.

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Journal 9: Light Touches.

So you all know how im working really hard to get my senses open well it’s making some progress even if it’s really light or gentle it makes me really happy and excited.
[Warning some adult stuff is about to happen in the journal so if you dont want to read it please don’t]
so yesterday night i was laying down on my bed feeling well um very horny which was werid because i dont feel that way much as i started focusing on the magick more well i thought i would play with myself ahem which I did and for some reason i thought of Belial’s sigil and well came thinking about it and guess what i felt a touch below my collarbone and on the top beginning part of my chest and yes i tested myself to see if this really happened or not and it did happen. I did felt a vibe of Belial from it but im not really sure if it was him still now so im gonna do a banishment and see if this is really him by getting a reading on this or asking some pros in here.

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Belial got on my desk, bare ass naked, and put his dick in my face, once.

In class.

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He was hot, and I liked it.

hilarious, yeah

he’s sexually intrusive.

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Hm he does make me feel lustful which I try to control because it’s disrespectful but i have heard he can also be sweet. I don’t know why I tought of his sigil at that time but i just did. Have no idea why lol maybe it might have been his work as he’s good at manipulating our minds. He’ll always be my Bad boy crush :wink:

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he’s tryna fuck you.

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Lol you sure? I mean it could be a parasite.

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It’s not, but if you think it is, ward yourself.

But it isn’t.

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How do you know? Just askin :slight_smile:

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He does it to me, but mainly I feel his energy off of this. I know it’s him, also I just asked him, it definitely is.

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Omg thank you for the clarification ^^ hugs

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That doesn’t mean everyone else will have the same experience. You may be able to detect an imposter, but others may not.
I’d be a bit careful with spirits (and humans) shoving their dick into your face tbh.

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That’s true, and fair. Belial and I have an established relationship, and he’s been bullshitting me for fun for months.

If you look through the forum, which you DO lol, you’ll see belial does this a lot to people who work with him.

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So should i banish just to be safe?

It’s still never wrong to advices newbies to be a little bit careful, and not just go for stuff like that.

What’s important is that you develop a feeling for what is legit and what feels weird, unwanted, threatening.
There are different opinions regarding banishing and cleansing.
I personally clean(s)e my apartment and mind every sunday, even when I don’t feel a weird presence or anything.
You decide whether what you felt is something you want to keep around, or not. You alone.
I just advice everyone to be careful and question things.

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Thank you. I guess im gonna do a salt water ritual tmw as it always works for me then I’ll do the banishing just to make sure. That is why i always question things as i have learned it from here from awesome magicians like you :slight_smile:

Is this a good one?

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you can also find good banishing methods on this forum.

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