A while ago I had a series of OOBEs at the gentle nudging* of a very close spirit of mine. I had expressed my desire to meet and merge with The Source as I wanted that mystical and very empowering experience.
So, as every call is answered (and answered well if you ask the right being.) I was taken out to meet The Source. I won’t get into the personal details of what I experienced but I feel impressed to talk about a bit of it.
Here is a small excerpt from my journal:
"[i]Finally we arrived after the long journey. I sat in a lotus position between two large reddish orbs, one to my left and the other to my right. Sitting there I began to meditate with my eyes open and just allow whatever was going to happen to happen.
In time I became aware of activity on the orb to my right. Turning my gaze I saw words in English appear on the surface of the orb. These words conveyed desires. “I want ___” “It is my Will that __ happen.”…etc. Being that I am a native English speaker I could read each desire and got the impression that somehow I was seeing someone attempting magic.
I became aware of activity on the orb that was on my left (now behind me as I was looking away form it) and saw a weird gibberish appear on it. It was not even remotely English or any language I have ever laid eyes on. While staring at the gibberish I began to become aware of the meaning, as if I was slowly learning that gibberish language.
“I am sorry, but I do not know what you want. I love you, please try again.” was what the gibberish was trying to get across.
“Magic and language…you think there is a difference, but as you see there is not. If you can not speak to the All in words then how will you communicate with it, and how do you expect it to aid you?” (NAME OMMITED) spoke softly to me as if the truth of the words were delicate. “How will you speak to God indeed?”
I moved closer to the orb on my right and erased the words. Instead I drew pictures and symbols common to the Western Mystery Traditions. I noticed that while doing this my bodies took on a new form and position as if the forms and positions I had were somehow relevant to this process. I realized that I, in that moment, became what I wanted. I had no desire for what I was after because in that moment I HAD what I started out after, the writing down my desire and the ritual were just formalities at that point.
Looking to the orb on my left I read the words “Understood, it is done.” I had the feeling that what I had asked for was complete and all that was left was for it to coalesce and condense through the planes until it manifested in the physical world.
Feeling rather happy I began to mediate again between these two orbs and slowly my vision shifted out of my bodies and I saw that the two orbs I was between stretched out for what looked like eternity. From that perspective they looked like neurons with myself occupying the space between. “Wait…is this the mind of God?”[/i]
Like I said I felt impressed to share this, maybe someone out there can make use of this.
*read: I was hit over the head with a “Clue-by-four”
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