Hello everyone,
I am new not just in this forum but in this “alternative spiritual journey” (apologies if this term I am using sounds pedantic or inauthentic, I am learning)
Anyway, my name is Julio and was brought up in a very devout Catholic family. First, I fell out of the religion because I could not reconcile the rejection against my sexuality. Then, for a time I was more of an agnostic with no specific religious affiliation but would still tend to believe in a god akin to the Christian god. Next, I became an atheist as I ascribed to a more intellectual outlook, evolution and stuff.
But the thing is, I always had strange lucid dreams that became more intense and detailed as I grew older. These dreams all through the years were consistent in its imagery: a lone tree with barely no leaves, it’s bark black and scorched, a fire burning at the foot of the tree, and someone sitting by the fire face hidden by a veil or a hood.
Anyway, i have endeavoured to finally attend to these dreams in different methods including psychiatric consultation (yes it is that intense in the recent years), but no satisfactory results.
Now, I have began to understand it and I have finally come to embrace the secret legacy of my mother’s bloodline long held in very strict secrecy.
I am just beginning in this journey and taking one small step at a time as I read through my mom’s family grimoire (my maternal grandmother specifically asked my mom to personally hand it to me as one of her dying wish that I have to organise to go home while the pandemic just began).
I do hope to make some connection even if just digitally.
Sincerely I remain
Julio
