I don’t really know how else to put it. I started with candle magick days ago, and it’s always the same. I’ve been told you must exhaust your desire…well, good thing I started meditating before I got into magick, so my analytical mind doesn’t get that much in the way. I feel this energy kind of pulsating through my whole body but for some reason it’s more intense around the stomach.
By the way, I can do this at will, but whenever I channel it towards a specific goal it’s even more intense, so intense it’s even unpleasant, it consumes me.
I also noticed it kinda makes me go mad when I’m in ritual, I don’t know if it’s personal and each magician reacts in a different way when focusing their will so much…I noticed I can get weird reactions due to so much energy, and plus that unpleasant feeling in the body…have you ever felt such a thing?