tl;dr is that Lu convinced me not to curse a person because it is literally his incarnation (one of many actually, you know the drill, basically an entity experiencing several lives simultaneously). I obliged, we argued back and forth that though I’d settle with non-aggression I still couldn’t let my grudge go…
… only to have him show up today, give me an implying smile, and confirm that:
He was baiting me into that belief.
To see if I would dare rebel and have it my way.
Not so much out of scaring me (I was unreasonably angry as always).
But rather out of actively deciding to disrespect Him.
Showed me that to curse effectively you must be ready to impose your will
Even above what you consider sacred.
All in all a great lesson that I * think * I already knew, but I cannot shake the feeling that Lu got a good laugh at my expense. Has he been like that to you too? Let me know, please.
I appreciate his teaching, it’s just that whenever I read on other people’s experiencies with Lucifer’s lessons is nothing short of a personal quest for the Grail that leaves them thinking for months afterwards, if not years.
This feels more of a Youtube prank channel. I am laughing too but it’s hard to manage.
Thank you for your thoughts. In the end it seems it was a joke and/or test on his behalf, trying to see what I’ll do if said not to go on with it. I went about my work and two days in the target is already running into overdue legal problems.
I still have a lot more of hexwork to do, though. Curious to see what will happen.