It’s the sort of thing people don’t usually ask about. Some find it easier to believe that magick could change the color of a planet than provide insight into how this all really works. And then when you do talk about it, good luck.
The Metatron experience I believe was similar to what some Buddhist texts describe as “cessation,” where subjective conscious experience blanks out into nothingness and then arises again. Presumably this is different to being asleep, when it is possible to retain and clarify the awareness that is present while in deep sleep states. This is like turning it off and then back on again, but like all the way.
I try not to read into this too much, but I am curious about what may be occurring within the brain. Most everything you read about “left-right brain” stuff is absolute, complete nonsense. You do have two hemispheres or halves to the brain that are connected by this “bridge” structure, but there is no such thing as a “left-brain person analytical type” or a “right-brain person creative type.” There are some who enjoy math and stuff and some who enjoy art and stuff, but these things are not localized entirely within one hemisphere of the brain. Certain cognitive functions, like the various things involved in language processing, are localized to specific regions of the brain, but these are more “low-level” things that everyone needs, and if these areas are damaged it causes predictable loss of function.
What interests me are “split-brain” patients. These people had the “bridge” that connects their brain hemispheres severed so that there is no communication (or at the least very very very little) between the halves of their brain. Important to note here is that your right hemisphere controls the left side of your body, like your left arm and eyeball, and vice versa.
Studies with these individuals has shown that information processing can occur outside of conscious awareness. Basically, they were shown a box with a divider down the middle so that each eye could only see what was on it’s side of the wall. If I recall correctly (you can google “split-brain” studies), the person could say what the right eye could see because fundamental language processing occurs in the left hemisphere, but not the left eye. Despite not being able to tell you what the left eye saw, if I recall correctly, if you showed them a group of images, they could point to what was in the left eye’s side of the box, perhaps only with their right hand. This was one of the more dull examples, I believe.
I try very much so to avoid pseudo-scientific quackery, but I am intrigued by the possibility of damage or some sort of stimulation to this “bridge” between hemispheres (the corpus callosum) to cause changed communication between brain hemispheres. Some have speculated that there could be an entire “being” or consciousness hidden away in the right hemisphere, unable to be known due to its lack of language processing abilities. Whether or not this is actually true, I find it to be an interesting allegory for what occurs when one attains the insights and abilities that magick can bring.
I suppose as a side note, when summoning Lucifer I occasionally felt drawn to the cerebellum and the spine. Not everyone knows that the spine is actually a part of the nervous system, just like the brain. Many messages travel to and from the brain along the spinal cord. The cerebellum is the little bulge at the back towards the bottom (I forget how to name brain regions, rostral dental pre-frontal orbital whatever), which many animals possess and is in charge of subconscious essential life functions, like regulating heart beat (I think) and stuff like that.
So I suppose take that as you will. I don’t dwell on this much, even when I think about these experiences. They were magickal experiences, and I don’t feel the need to justify my experience with dodgy “scientific evidence.”
The other one should make some sense if you know much of anything about magick. EA puts it this way - Omniscience, Omnipotence, Omnipresence. All is mind. I can tell you that you continually manifest the world as the light of magick, beyond the bright light and the dark light, light and dark, time and space, mental or material physical being, passes away, arises, passes away, in all moments, and you can contemplate and think about this and perhaps even start to act like it is true, but something changes when you come to know this in a way that is beyond words, images, any sort of label.
If you know, you can probably tell if someone else does or does not. Those with the most bravado tend to be the least realized. When you come to understand magick, at least come to understand it more, it gives you a clarity and a sense of peace because you know what is really going on.