I’m Bri, 34. I’m extremely new to lhp, but here’s my story…
This is a path that I never thought I’d be on. However looking back at all the incidents in my life now, all the weird and unexplainable things that have followed me since childhood, I feel like I was supposed to be here all along. I was raised Catholic but left the church when I was 18, but for some reason I cling onto that identity even though I didn’t actually agree with much of anything. Living in a small city where everyone is pretty much religious I guess it was easier. Never did I feel like I fit in.
Weird things have always happened to me that I couldn’t explain. In 2004 they started getting intense. I had pretty much non stop sleep paralysis. With every incident things would get more severe to the point where I could feel something on top of me forcing me down and being completely helpless. At that time I started having very dark, strange dreams. In 2008 I had a dream that felt like I was awake where a stunning women all dressed in black sat with me in my room and we shared a cigarette. She was extremely charming but was adamant about getting me to change my belief system. A few years later I had a very vivid paralysis incident where all of my dead pets were surrounding my bed and I felt very awake but couldn’t move.
Things mostly stopped when I moved but my life remained strange. The last paralysis I had this year almost felt like I was levitating which was new.
About two years ago I started getting more spiritual and got into meditation, mainly chakra. For some reason this year I started to engage in intense twin flame/soulmate meditation where I was forced to cry out and feel the pain and loss of my twin flame and our separation. About 3 months later I had the urge to join a dating app where I met a man who I believe to be my twin flame/soulmate. He was already well on his ascension path & we met on his birthday. While we argued about it at first, within less than a week everything started to fall into place and make sense. I started Lilith meditation and almost immediately I had a dream that I was wondering around topless with a snake tattoo on my lower abdomen and the words “Call Her” above my bellybutton. Only less than a month into this journey I feel such a strong connection to everything more so than anything I’ve ever felt in my entire life. I feel like things finally make sense and I’m letting go of the beliefs that inhibited me. I’ve been experiencing strong sensations of a presence. My goal is to follow the lhp with the utmost respect and take in all the knowledge that I can now. Everything I read makes me feel more at home for the first time in my life. I’ve not gotten to magick yet but it’s in my future.