I’m Hysteria, an Ecclectic witch of many names but, we’ll stick with Hysteria since it was my second-best choice and Muse was already taken.
I’ve been on the path for what feels like forever, but to say I’ve actively walked it feels more deceptive than anything else. It’s more like…it always had a part to play in my life, and only now (seven years after subscribing to Koetting’s mailing subscription) have I begun to dip my toe in the waters and submerge my doubts.
Beforehand I tried everything under the sun; Paganism, Wicca, even sinking more than a grand into other Metaphysical websites thinking they would be the key to whatever it was I had been trying to get ahold of. They weren’t, so I’ve convinced myself that it’s better to learn everything on my own, and actively walk the left hand path instead of paying others to do it for me.
The hardest part of this was retraining. One of the things I’d been trying to practice was Shamanism, and that somehow led me to the Spirit Keeping side of the Metaphysical community. I can’t tell if it was ultimately a blessing or a curse, but very few good things came out of that side of the journey, and a lot of lessons I thought I’d learned for the betterment of my spiritual growth wound up being nothing more than weights on my progress. So I’d abandoned most if not all of it, keeping very few things from the metaphorical ashes.
One of those things is my draw to demonic magicks, pacts, and friends. Another, is my belief that working with Spirits can be a Boon — but only when done by oneself, and not when apart of some kind of movement. Ironic, as I’m joining yet another community. I suppose my point here is, my goal is to no longer sit on the sidelines.
I’m going to be the practitioner I was born to be, and I’m going to eventually become one of the best around…and I’ll do it through my own work. Along with guidance from those before me, from dark lords and lady’s who wish to aid me, and the various members of this forum whose wisdom is surely valuable.