I suppose my age is pretty important. I am currently 16, which I do know that I’m currently not a legal adult, although I have read about those starting on this path younger, so I didn’t assume it would be too bad. I mean, this is something I want to do, and it just kind of seems pointless to wait two years when I could get started now, but I do know that there are going to be additional hardships.
And as for what I’m hesitant about, well, I suppose it is about my family first and foremost. The main thing is that I feel like I have to hide what I do from them because of some irrational fears of embarrassment and the like, and although so far they don’t really seem to take interest in what I do, there’s that piece of doubt saying if they knew that I would be doing this, something negative would happen. And unfortunately that’s pretty much my experience with literally everyone else I know, where my irrational fears kick in and I hide under the mask of a boring, plain person. So this is pretty bad. Although now I’m getting a bit off topic.
The worst part is that even though other people are the reason I feel like I can’t do things like this, it’s not their fault, it’s mine and my assumptions that also have no basis. I know I am the only one holding myself back. But I suppose that also means I am the one that needs to overcome this and move forward.
Not to mention, that’s only part of the problem, like I said in my other thread, I am a huge procrastinator, and so it’s a bit hard for me to take the advice of “Just do it”.
I apologize for any phrasing mistakes that may be in here.
I also apologize if it seems like I’m flooding this place with my problems. I’m probably just not that good at telling others my problems in a way that doesn’t come off as too strong. Most likely because I actually just keep my problems bottled up, which isn’t that good either. Still, I definitely have hope for the future as I know I can improve myself.