It’s a bit of a strange question but i’m curious to know if anyone has a possible answer to why I am doing this.
For context i’m quite a newbie in terms of practicing, but I have been on/off meditating for the past few years (though with poor consistency).
I have an issue where, during meditations related to specific entities (such as the King Paimon guided meditation) I will begin having inappropriate background thoughts. This causes me to pull myself away from the meditation because it’s like the thought pops up (for example, so-so sucks or whatever) and then because i dont want to think it, it begins repeating over and over. I pull myself away from that meditation because I don’t want to accidentally offend anyone (even if what is said is not how I feel) and frankly it’s quite embarrassing. It feels like a bit of a trivial thing to have an issue with but it greatly affects the quality of my meditation.
I suppose this could fall under the general chatter of my mind as it is very talkative and hard to ease, so when it is not saying things that it shouldn’t be saying it is just overall distracting me from entering the zone.
What techniques can I employ to help with this? I’ve done a fair bit of googling and I tend to cycle through several different methods during meditation but I usually can’t shut myself up.
I’d really appreciate any advice or anecdotes!