The Fate Of All Fools

Veil · September 22, 2020, 9:46am

Tue 22/9

My servitor has settled, I called him up earlier and he was fine. Sent him back out into the world to do my bidding.

The first Jinn ritual I did (“reverse a negative cycle”) is already paying dividends, of a sort, but it has not been gentle by any means. I’m getting the distinct feeling that the Jinn are having a laugh at my expense. Hey, if it gets the job done, though… It’s up to me to make it permanent, so I’m thinking I will supplement it with other rituals. I might expand on this in a week or two, because it’s not enough to say something “worked” or not, silly me needing to always see the cause and effect and wanting to document it.

Looking back over the past few months I would say my workings have been largely successful, but impermanent. In some cases I receive better than I believe (thank you Belial), in other cases I have gotten exactly what I want but in… very unrefined circumstances.

I’m slowly getting back to normal after a setback two Fridays ago; I’m sad to say I reacted (not outwardly, but inwardly) quite strongly. It really set in after a day or two and I had a lot of trouble not sinking into anger and despondency over the past week. I think I’m in a better place to be able to revise the event now and make it serve me. “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”

Since I am combining Law of Assumption principles with ritual, it does make me question the greater tapestry of circumstance and perception that I’m weaving.

It is up to me to adapt to the changing of tides, true; but I wonder… what is the greater truth? If I cast an angelic ritual to heal someone’s mental state and it results in them withdrawing from me completely, is it because the work canceled any prior castings to draw them closer? Or does it work in tandem, as part of a greater plan? Is it because “angels work long-term with everyone’s best interests in mind”, unlike demons who “work quick and dirty”? Of course there is no way for me to say either way – unless or until I can step out of the bounds of 3D, and see all possibilities. But do I not bend probability in my favour with my will and intent?

And speaking of – it is not willpower, but intent, which drives action. I can sit here and “will” my toes to wiggle, and I might feel a build-up of focus and energy and maybe be rewarded with some twitches, but until I “intend” my toes to wiggle, nothing happens. How do I properly translate this into a casting? Or is this the power of emotional transmutation? This is why my brain keeps coming back to Law of Assumption, because it seems to be the sole orthodoxy which underscores every other type of work: a way to bypass your conscious brain and impress your intent onto your subconscious, which then does the work for you by bringing about the desired result. Whether it’s achieved by rituals demonic, angelic, or neutral/chaotic sigil-based; or by drinking magic water or affirming or askfirming or SATS…

When I question myself, on certain beliefs, “is this true?” – it is comforting that the immediate and vehement response from my meat-sack is a resounding “yes, this is true.” And that belief builds upon itself. We assume it, we believe it, and we know it is only a matter of time. If I supplement Law of Assumption with ritual, do I cast doubt on what I assume? If I “lawfully assume” my rituals are successful, do I Lust for Results™? Maybe? No? Why don’t I simply “lawfully assume” that my rituals work effortlessly, quickly, and to my greatest benefit?

…Now there’s something…

Veil · September 24, 2020, 9:05am

Thu 24/9

Finished 3/3 of 3 rituals from Sigils of Power and Transformation last night. Damn 333, again I have these so-called ‘angel numbers’ popping up everywhere. Can’t even open the bloody fridge without the damn olive jar reminding me.

Also ladders – so many ladders – which I take to be an eye-roll-worthy nod to Neville Goddard’s ladder experiment, and yet another sign. Last night I dreamt of ladders. Today I got stuck behind some slow-ass driver on the way to work, realised their car had 3 or 4 ladders strapped to the roof racks. A tradie came in to the office today and set up a ladder right outside my office. On the drive home I was sitting at a red light thinking about how many ladders I’d seen that day and a ute pulled up in the lane next to me… ladders in the tray Signs are nice and all but enough, I want my damn results!

I am feeling much better, and no doubt thanks to some of the SoP&T sigils I’ve fired off. But again, it is always a work in progress with room for improvement. I’m proud of myself for being able to accept stasis and move forward with patience and foresight. There is no force in the heavens, no power in the underworld, not a single thing on God’s green earth that will stand between me and getting what I want. But, why should I wait around for it to come to me, when I could be better enjoying myself in the meanwhile?

Working on a new Tarot spread, more inspired by the throwing of bones and reading of runes. Seems to be going well. Further experimentation required.

I will continue laying the foundations. Plenty of time. I will have the house to myself for a few days very soon so I am planning to make great use of the time for rituals where I can actually chant and command and speak and sing, instead of punctuating my shower-singing with LBRP and either whispering words of power or playing music loud enough to wake the dead so I can chant over it. Looking forward to it.

Veil · September 27, 2020, 3:08am

Sun 27/9

Practical Jinn Magick - ritual to make somebody unpopular - Thu 24/9
Attempted some additional rituals from SoP&T Fri 25/9, but I didn’t give them my full attention and I didn’t repeat them on Saturday. I will start over tonight.

Some manifestations of last week: Someone at work was meant to be away for a few weeks, I decided it was not so. They showed up on Monday as normal and canceled their leave. I also summoned a coworker to the office three days out of five just to see if I could; normally they work from home and I never see them; to see them 2/5 days was one thing, but I also managed to get them to show up the third day. Just “small” things I was testing, but nice to see that shit just shows up for me when I have no resistance to it.

Have revised, and forgiven. A perspective shift was needed, and if I am being honest, it is still in progress of shifting. But I keep coming back to this:

By which I mean that I cannot move forward to achieve what I want, if I am still focusing on the “old story” and how things were. I cannot forgive someone and yet still cling to how I was wronged. I cannot consciously manifest signs from another person, but then be angry at them and lash out because they simply conformed to my own old, outdated assumptions of how they’d act. I was tested again this Friday just gone, and was thankfully able to respond appropriately, in mind and in deed.

It is true that “nothing is good or bad but thinking makes it so”; your subconscious does not know the difference between “good” and “bad”, it only listens to what you tell it (via your thoughts, focus, and attention) and makes it happen. It just so happened I got some wires crossed. That’s on me. I cannot see what is happening behind the scenes, but I know it’s all happening for me, not to me. Why? For “thinking makes it so”.

I have been shown that if I pick an outcome and single-mindedly focus on it, it is exceptionally easy to manifest that outcome; but through the path of least resistance, and with all my prior baggage attached to boot.

There is a lesson in all this; that at this time I cannot rush the outcome. And intellectually I know that events need room to unfold in my perception of the 3D world, and I know that I myself need room to clear the tangle of thorns out of my brain and till the soil for the sowing; or I risk another bitter harvest.

One day I may go into more detail about exactly what happened, but suffice to say it was the emotional/relationship equivalent of manifesting a big lump sum payout because you got T-boned by a drunk driver.

Today I am feeling tired of focusing constantly on the same thing, but in a fragmented and unclear way, lacking strategy, as I keep switching tack every time
a new thought occurs to me about the same subject. I want to drop it entirely but I feel incapable of doing that, so I am trying to lose myself in other activities. However, I am still managing to turn my thoughts to serve me, no matter how tired or despondent.

Also I am in danger of falling back down the divination rabbit-hole. Earlier, before writing this, I thought I’d just idly shuffle the deck and pull some cards for myself as a gauge of where I’m at and maybe a path forward. I pulled the Nine of Swords three times in a damn row. Fine, message received. I lay it down and drew some more, and ended with the nine of swords, five of wands, three of cups, two of cups. So my takeaway from this is of course to be wary of getting trapped in a negative spiral, and that I need to work through my inner conflict as I move through this perspective shift and transitional state; reunion and a blossoming relationship await on the other side.

So with all that rambling out of the way… my strategy should be (1) transmute lust for results into conscious manifestation, and (2) approach manifestation from the foundations the same way I am currently approaching rituals; walking before I run. It’s not sexy or exciting but it needs to be done. Like the emotional equivalent of going and buying a disassembled chair from IKEA and then sitting on the flatpack box wondering why you can’t properly reach the dinner table. I actually need to do the work and put all the shit together for myself or I’m going to have shallow victories that dissolve quickly, with no actual long-term change.

Veil · September 27, 2020, 10:41am

Sun 27/9

Felt drained all day today; not sure if because I only had a mere seven hours’ sleep, or because I spent about three hours doing back to back Tarot readings on various sites last night.

Tonight, just finished two petition rituals – Dantalion and Seere – Demons of Magick style.

I forgot how amazing Dantalion’s energy is. Dantalion seems to have this incredible way of lightening any burdens I’m carrying, just as a byproduct of his presence. I say “his” but he regularly shows up in the guise of the district attorney Amanda Green, of The Tiger King docuseries fame, wearing a black judge’s robe.

My mood is up, and if my mind tries to catch and hold any troubling thoughts, it’s like trying to catch moonlight – slips right through my grasp. First time calling on Seere but he had a similarly uplifting energy; we shared a nod and a knowing smile over the inevitability of the outcome. Raise a toast to them both.

Veil · September 28, 2020, 10:29am

Mon 28/9

Well, I had plans for a five-day ritual starting tonight and ending on the full moon. But I thought I’d do a divination first and in all my shuffling, drew the Four of Cups five or six times, and now I feel weird about it.

To be fair, as weird as it sounds, it was a ritual to achieve something I already know I have, thinking I could just generate an excess of that energy to transmute into something else.

I’m gonna leave well enough alone for now.

Had another person read for me and while they also drew favourable cards, it seems to hinge (as most things do) on my attitude towards it, and right now I only feel a sense of foreboding. They also drew the Four of Cups, as well as The Tower, which I drew in my initial three-card draw as well.

If I do proceed with this tonight, I feel I’m just going to sully the outcome with my current attitude. And honestly, it can wait. There’s another full moon this month, the ritual itself doesn’t even need to be performed leading up to the full moon in my situation, and besides, again, I already have the outcome, I was just looking to multiply it.

Veil · October 2, 2020, 12:53pm

Fri 2/10

Note to future self: Veil you big idiot, stop relying on Tarot readings. There’s a time and a place for everything; once is enough.

I did end up doing a Friday, full moon, hour of Venus ritual. Not the one I originally planned, but a ritual nonetheless.

But when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

I have the house completely to myself for the next few days so I had a fkn great time chanting and singing (so much so that I’m thinking of making a recording of it so I can have it on tap when I have to go back to whispering and working in relative silence). Anyway, great visualisations, nice tall and strong candle flame with no drippings or residue. Candle burned right into the sigil and ignited everything. Left only with a fine, white, powdery ash. Just waiting for it to cool then I will scatter it to the winds.

Tomorrow I’m diving headlong back into full evocation, feeling good about it.

Also stumbled across this old gem of a thread I’ve been using:

I’ve also been thinking about a story of a few years back, when I was deep in limerence and ended up manifesting precisely what I wanted because of (or in spite of?) the constant obsessive intrusive thoughts. Will post later… probably.

Veil · October 6, 2020, 8:49am

Tuesday, October 6th

Parkway Drive – Cemetery Bloom

I didn’t get the house to myself as long as I expected over the weekend just gone, so could not proceed with the handful of full evocations I had planned. It’s not the same when you have to whisper and creep around in silence. I was hoping to get three more full rituals in, not counting Friday’s ritual.

October 4: Orias evocation. Note to self: remain standing for the entire ritual next time
October 5: Agares petition.

Feeling quite neutral and a bit lazy at the moment. The neutrality is nice, I’ve been approaching a goal in a structured way with a number of different rituals and I’ve been so oversaturated with it that now I rarely think about it except in a vague “this is done” way with a little smile on my face. I cast a ritual and then put it out of my mind, and if I do happen to think of it, my mind just slides away from it. Again, I feel like I cannot take entire credit for this and it is in large part thanks to passively basking in Dantalion’s current.

I had another sleep paralysis episode a few days ago which was underwhelming; I remember waking and being unable to move, a little disconcerted, and then as I normally do, I call to King Belial. I’m still trying to recapture that one episode where I spontaneously experienced a bunch of his evocation keys. This time I simply heard voices whispering “Belial, Belial”; and then I drifted back to sleep, but I had the distinct memory of rolling over on my side and falling back to sleep, only to later awaken again and find that I was still (?) on my back. Damn it Veil, you really need to capitalise on these sleep paralysis episodes when they occur.

On the lazy side of things… I’ve started falling asleep while meditating. Silly. I need to meditate upright and make better use of my time.

Veil · October 12, 2020, 11:51pm

Tuesday, 13th October

Not much to report today magickal-practice-wise.

Last night I had broken sleep and kept going in and out of dreams. The single theme was that I was casting rituals and petitions to Buer, who I have not worked with before. In the last dream, another spirit showed up, a gaunt and wiry old man with very long white hair. I woke up with the impression of “F”. I opened up my copy of Demons of Magick and the page I was on was “The powers of Furcas”. His evocation keys: grey and white, and the feeling of old skin over hard muscle.

Looks like I’ll be working with Buer and Furcas, I suppose. I haven’t had a demon try to reach me in dreams, that I know of, since my PAIMON dream.

More rambling:
I remember a situation that happened a few years ago. Maybe six or seven years now that I think about it. I was lying in bed and meditating on Elubatel’s sigil, then put it aside and tried to sleep. My ears were full of the sound of ringing. From a distance I heard dogs barking, and then in a great chain from far to nearby, all the dogs in the neighbourhood were set to howling and barking. From the window right behind my head I heard a dog’s steady panting gradually approaching, until it was right by my head. By then I was very disturbed and firmly cried “Stop!” in my head. The sound – panting, barking, and ringing all – stopped, not at all once, but as though some great hand seized the world’s volume control and turned it steadily down from 10 to zero. I think that was what freaked me out the most. I was too nervous to sleep for a long time after, and I never figured out exactly what happened.

Edit: also on the way to work I was violently overtaken by a car whose numberplate read “3 Signs”. Ok universe, give me my three signs then, I’m ready.

Until next time

Veil · October 15, 2020, 10:49am

Veil · October 20, 2020, 10:20am

Tuesday, 20th October

Kendrick Lamar – LOVE. FEAT. ZACARI.

Have been steadily working my way through a bunch of targeted petitions, with more planned over the remainder of the week.

One petition last night felt like a big win. Good energy, strong candle flame. Evocation keys were easily called up and projected. Got a bit turned on. The petition burned so quickly and strongly that the flames were floating an inch or two above the actual paper. Will report back in a few weeks.

Second petition last night, almost instantaneous results after calling up this particular spirit and tasking him. Within the hour later I had results, and the results have lasted all through today. Note, this was a petition for internal change, not material manifestation as such. Part of the deal was public praise, so I hope he understands that I am holding off on being more explicit here, because while the quick effects are very welcome, I would like to see if it holds a bit more long-term, to the spirit of the petition, and not just the word. But, so far I am quite impressed, and excited to share praise. I’m a little bit in awe/love. Reee

Petition tonight, same deal; took a minute to get myself settled but made sure I was in the zone when I went into it. Good connection, strong visualisation, quick burning.

My dreams (which I take to be a yardstick for my subconscious) have been gradually clearing up. Last night was an interesting kind of meta-dream, in which I was experiencing something that I wanted, and my dream-self, while not lucid, was nonetheless conscious that it was being imprinted on my subconscious.

And before I drifted off to sleep, Furcas was on my mind once more, and I felt a presence quite strongly. Today I was idly drawing him. I haven’t forgotten, and I will call on you.

I am watching the results of a petition I made a few months ago seeming to come to fruition before my very eyes. I’m actually wondering if I should reverse it because there’s probably going to be a lot of money in it for me. At the time I didn’t see beyond just wanting it to be removed from my day to day life, but now I think I am better equipped to handle it, and instead of using magic to make the problem go away, I can use magic to make myself more capable of handing the problem.

Got myself a new Tarot deck, and ordered hard-copies of 72 Angels of Magick and Demons of Magick. I plan to pad out my collection with a hardcopy of every Gallery of Magick book… just in case.

One note; I have been following my own notes I’ve taken on DoM’s first ritual, the petition ritual. I should amend them to include the below as I have found them very helpful for myself:

Eyes open visualisation during opening ritual, while staring fixedly through the core ritual sigil.
Chanting Atah Gibor Le-olam Adonai rather than stating it once, while staring through the core ritual sigil.
If I have trouble focusing I continue to chant the above while scanning the demon’s sigil, up until calling the Shem angel.
Continuing to mentally chant the demon’s name as I cycle through the evocation keys, building momentum, switching back and forth at random between them.

Veil · October 21, 2020, 2:01am

Dreamt of being chased by a blind white lion, trying to fight it off but its claws were in me. I was on the ground, it looming over me like a lover, claws in flesh, then woke up. Felt sick, felt ominous presence(s). Banished, set wards, and went back to sleep. Broken sleep. Weird dreams. Today feeling drained and ill and foggy.

Veil · October 25, 2020, 12:58pm

Sunday, 25th October

Drake – Finesse

Not much to report.

My nails are getting too long to type properly with.

If I was better-prepared and not so lazy, I’d have cast a ritual last week for what I have to face tomorrow. Rather, I’m just going to wing it, which is how I approach most things in life, and seems to have worked out for me so far.

I should plan something for the Halloween blue moon. Perhaps I will cut my fingernails in ritual offering.

Most of this weekend was spent diving down internet rabbit-holes. I find it oddly comforting to be reminded how warped and uncertain “reality” is. It shores up my belief that the 3D world is exceptionally malleable.

Today:

A minor manifestation after setting an intent for it yesterday, which I’d completely forgotten abut until it showed up. Just another experiment in testing the law. It’s coincidence! …Or is it?
Ritual from Sigils of Power and Transformation
Direct magic… of a sort. At first, not on purpose, I spaced out and entered a sort of waking trance, and ended up “opening” an image of someone like you’d open a sigil. Then doubled down deliberately, deep trance, astral temple, summoned them, interacted, dismissed. Very unscientific, but pleases me. Will need to test further.
Shuffled the ever-loving fuck out of the new deck. Me, thinking: when are you going to show me something positive? Two cards leapt out: king of pentacles, two of cups… … … … I don’t know what to make of this. Don’t play with my heart, new deck.

Can’t be in a room with you and stand on different sides
One thing at a time
I have to learn to hide
One thing at a time
Emotions running high

Veil · October 27, 2020, 9:15am

Tuesday, October 27th

Nothing But Thieves – Particles - Piano Version

Probably barely a journal entry focused on magic but I’ll see how I go.

Actually let me put all the magic (?) at the top and all the moping at the bottom.

Presence

I woke up around 2.30am last night. I’d been dreaming of lying in bed on my stomach. Someone sat down on the bed next to me. I didn’t see their face. They said something to me, then dug their fingers roughly into the meat under my right shoulderblade. I awoke with a jolt, lying in the same position I’d been dreaming in, still with a bit of lingering pain in that one spot. The bedside lamp, which I’d left on by accident when I fell asleep, flickered and went out, and then flickered back on.

This marks the second or third sleep-related event in the past week that has unsettled me, and I’ve been feeling generally shitty and out of sorts, which is ringing some alarm bells. So after re-setting wards, I called @Keteriya’s Luna:

Who was wonderfully responsive, and nosed around the room for a bit before I asked her to inspect and cover the rest of the house. When I got home tonight I called her again and she appeared right outside my bedroom door. Interesting.

I’m thinking about also tasking one of the Goetic demons for more protection.

Ritual

Since I was wide awake anyway, I fired off a bunch of Mystical Words of Power rituals. I’ve always liked to do a bunch of these one after the other so I forget which I’ve done. The emotional transmutation is helpful. I vaguely remember what I did. Will report back, maybe.

Sad

I’m sad.

I am tired of thinking about the same thing constantly.
I hate being awake.
I hate the weekends and I hate the workdays.

I know my mood can change overnight or in hours, but right now I just want to stare listlessly at the wall and listen to sad songs and wallow in self-pity.

But I’m nothing so good, no I’m nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs

Don’t know if this sadness is entirely mine. I keep having random little frissons of pre-goosebumps all over my body; beginning last night and lasting all of today. I don’t like it, and without any clear mundane cause it makes me suspicious. I’m gonna banish and re-set wards like all hell.

Keteriya · October 27, 2020, 9:30am

Some of us have noted, that she tends to patrol doorways, windows and other entrances in our homes, that can be used as portals for the unwanted, I’m not sure if this is the case or if she was just respecting your space Either way sounds like she’ll do her best to aid you on this conquest.

Edit: You can ask Luna to take the sad/bad feels. She’s pretty good at transmuting them into better things, from what I’ve experienced myself.

Veil · October 27, 2020, 9:37am

My bedroom doubles as my ritual space, so I don’t know whether to take that as “this is the most troublesome area” or just “hey I was guarding this specific area for you”. Maybe I’ll call her up later and see if I can figure out what she found. So many damn doors and windows in my house so definitely enough to keep her busy.

I see her as standing about thigh-high, decidedly purple, with mane shaded through with tones from twilight to midnight blue, and the symbol on her flank is white. Super responsive, and I’ll be relying on her help for a while, I think. Thanks for sharing her with us

Also edit:

I will 100% be doing this. Normally my go-to method is to call up Dantalion and bask in his passive current. This seems much more convenient.

Keteriya · October 27, 2020, 9:41am

You are most welcome. I am really pleased that she’s able to help so many people, I was worried about sharing and that no one would have interest in her.

She seems to like blue and purple colors, though I’ve seen other colors reported so far, so it may also be slightly what the summoner expects or desires as far as color goes.

She seems to enjoy her job too, which I think is definitely a positive thing. She also seems to be able to answer questions, though it gets sketchy when asking about things like numbers and timelines, but I think she should be able to help you identify the cause of your issues, so that you can take the right measures.

Veil · October 27, 2020, 11:28am

Update: I’m feeling more uplifted and determined now.

Asked Luna to remove my sads, and I went and traded a reading with someone on another site. I am deeply awed by and respectful of tarot divination, but also I’ll be damned if I take anything lying down. Fate is not set in stone, or what’s the point of magic?

Veil · October 29, 2020, 11:52am

Thursday, October 29th

PARTYNEXTDOOR – Kehlani’s Freestyle

Initial success manifesting material results with affirmations.

What’d I do differently?

Actually stuck with the same affirmation for days on end. Whenever I was idle, when I was falling asleep, when I was performing chores, when I woke up, when I had a few minutes spare that I’d normally spend looking at my phone.
Affirmations were results-focused, i.e. focused on an objective, material measure of success, not a subjective feeling.
Decided on an affirmation that felt natural, i.e., it sounds like something I would say aloud if my best friend asked me about my situation – in my words, my dialect, my natural rhythms of speech.
Appended “…this week” to my affirmations.
Looping said affirmation would effortlessly conjure a mental image and that would put a smile on my face.

Started on Monday or Tuesday (maybe Tuesday). I will stick with this one and see where it gets me this time next week.

Blue moon full moon Halloween this weekend. I still have nothing planned.

Last night Wed 28/10 – Unfreezing ritual, part one.

Tonight – Unfreezing ritual, part two.

Who did you love that I gotta shake hands with?
Who did you love that I gotta make plans with?
If we not standing then it’s not a one night stand and
I’m not romantic, I’m not with the antics, no
Damn I wish I took things slower

raR · October 29, 2020, 1:45pm

It’s comforting, because it takes the boring out of it and allows one at the bottom to rise to the top.

Veil · November 2, 2020, 12:10pm

Monday, 2nd November

Felt oddly buoyant today. Very few troubling thoughts, which meant very little prompt for affirmations. Nice to be back in that expectant, calm, certain mindset of “it is done”.

Note to self: need to perform more magic to ~~lube up~~ grease the wheels of my day-to-day life. Everything goes smoothly in general, but there’s always room to adjust and nudge it onto an even more pleasant course.

Fri 30/10: Finished Unfreezing Ritual, day three.

Saturday 31/10: Opening for the group ritual work I’m doing; petition to Hekate.

Sunday 1/11: More work with Hekate. Visionary magic. She, as pale as death, robed in black or midnight blue, wearing a crown of three moons. After the group work, I hedged that I had something else I wished to request. “Ask,” she said. Her voice is deep. I asked her assistance to break down, destroy, and remove any barriers that stand between myself and my goal.

She showed me the shimmering trail of a full moon reflected in the sea. The light of the Moon is hindered by nothing physical; its path is clear, even when the tide draws back to reveal rock or reef or hidden precipice. She showed me myself, a key piercing my heart chakra. “The key that unlocks the world,” she said.