Greeting friends. Been quite a while since I posted. Life has been full of deep lows and extravagant heights, more often then not occurring in the span of one day. Last time I posted was before the solar eclipse, I believe.
I’ve been discovering my own methods, understandings, rituals, and powers and the whole journey of life has brought me to this day. This very moment. Through struggle and strife, I have finally caught a glimpse and sensation of what I believe is truth, and am on my own personal path of enlightenment/self realization.
So, I’m sure you all have been feeling the immensely powerful energy present, especially within the last couple days(it might always be there, this potent, and maybe I’m just not tapping into it). Either way, to me the veil seems to be flying up and I feel this vast and heavy power in my reality. Last night I was made very aware of it, and actually feel like I was attacked by a group of beings. I do not know their intent, but I felt the darkest and most evil parts of my soul and personality being pulled to the front of my mind. It was terrifying and it made me so angry and sad, my options seemed very slim and I was starting to scare myself.
I have learned and realized many things since last night and today is very special. So I want to perform an impromptu ritual tonight under stars, and beside firelight, alone. My Intent is to bring all the influences on all levels of my life, dark or light, left hand or right hand path, and sort of have a council meeting so that I may make my intent and my emotions clear to myself and all those that would interfere in my spiritual path in any way.
After this meeting, I’m going to banish or dismiss all outside entities unless they want to aid me in the next phase of the ritual, where I will communicate my desires to the universe and show my strength of skill and demonstrate how I want to be perceived by the world.
I know its a bit crazy/silly/strange sounding but this is how I operate. I wait for the surge or the rush of energy, when my confidence is strong and my desires are known clearly. Then I act.
Im posting to ask for a few suggestions… The ritual itself will be performed in the flow and the energy of the moment with my will and my desire taking up my entire energy and the circle.
My questions are this:
Is there a special circle that I can conjure up and cast that is known for being a good circle for bringing all energies to the circle? Not just demons or angels, gods or devils, but a circle that welcomes all, but promotes constructive and serious discussion?
I will probably incorporate a guitar and a fire in the ritual in order to reach a strong state of mind and spirit, and also a coherent sort of trance. Do any of you recommend certain notes or chords or patterns that seem to be universally neutral? I know this seems strange or silly, but I’m very experimental and act on intuition and the flow of energy in rituals/performances.
Really, I just want to know if any of you have done similar things and what you found to be beneficial for bringing balance to the circle, while also maintaining the atmosphere of “I’m reasonable, but I’m the boss.”
Haha… Just throw shit at me and I’ll sort through it… Confidence in chaos.