Hi guys im Casper Im 23 years old
Some time now I have studied orgonite, ancient egypt, ormus, occult and magic etc and its all very exciting and I WANT to do this
But the only thing I can do is just study it a little on my ipad. In over 5 month my consciousness have been so cloudy that I can barely think and remember stuff.
Here is the problems:
-no emotions (I was to a concert and and I just felt the same as if I was brushing my teeth in the morning)
-can’t even plan 1 day ahead
All of this is a nightmare! I wanna be excited and motivated about life but everything is like I am standing in a big cloud and only can se 3 feet forwards! I can’t remember what I did 2 days ago…
all I can pull myself together to do is to buy some orgonite, crystals and ormus that hopefully can help me wake the f**k up but im still waiting for that
also I can meditate a little bit but the gains are so bad due to the state my consciousness is in.
I think it all started when I tryed some alchemy methods to turn iron to gold (it failed but have more ideas to try)
Does anyone know what I can do? Should I put all my effort into making an evocation to a spirit that can help get out of this state? if so which one?
thank you all