So I am The Magi as I’ve titled myself (Just a name that sits with me and idk why) and I’m having trouble in my life.
I can bring it into three categories.
Academic/Physical: I’m not sure what I want to do with my life, what kind of degree I want. I know I want to have a nice stable income and I want to write books. Even though I want to write books I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. It sounds odd but just writing doesn’t seem enough to me, I want to be able to get some funds fast while working on my books.
Wealth: This is a subcategory of this, I don’t have the best source of money atm so it hinders me from writing, from getting help, from magick not just because of the funds but also the stress of not having funds. I wanted to see if anyone can help me with that. I know I can evoke and ritual which I’ve tried but I’m not getting results on my own. I’ve been giving it time but still not what I needed.
Emotional/Relationships: So I’m pretty lonely I’m not afraid to say and I am not afraid to admit I work better with company or a S/O. I haven’t tried much magick for that, and I’ll say why in the magick section.I feel an emotional void and It seems to be affecting my life. I have friends but it feels distance and though I’m fine with being on my own I would rather have someone in my life. I need help (not looking for someone on here to come to my doorstep but if you could work with me on doing magick to help me out)
Magick: The one thing that gives me hope also makes me doubt. I do evocations but with almost no result. The only real one I got results on was Mepistial but the contact hasn’t been the same since the first time her and I talked. I can’t hear spirits even in my living imagination, I was diagnosed with anxiety as a teen and I am on medicine which could be affecting my sense but I’m not sure. I meditate, most the funds i use to have, have gone to BALG Courses and I practice them to the best of my abilities but I haven’t gotten what I need back. I believe in magick and spirits and more but with every failed evocation and ritual I seem to question what I already know to be the truth. Maybe I’m not ready? Maybe its worked in a way I can’t see? But either way, I still can’t seem to do what I aim to do. Any help?
I ask this of you. you don’t have to help out or answer. Maybe getting this out will just help or maybe someone else feels the same. Thank you for listening.