So I’ve been doing some thinking. Humans have sought to improve their lot in life through science and technology. The issue with this is this has lead humans bit by bit to a lazy, isolated existence.
One thing I’ve dealt with constantly is deciding to go out and deal with my anxiety or stay in and deal with my depression. When I go out, sometimes I have a good time and feel like I’m actually breathing for once. Other times, I feel so much coming at me and I’m unprepared. When I don’t go out, sometimes I feel like I’m rotting away from the inside. I think humans absorb energy from other living things. This includes other humans. So socialization is a literal exchange of energy. And we need this energy like we need oxygen just to function properly.
I get it. The world is scary and people can be mean. So, it’s just easier to bar one’s self inside. But the fact is that’s the nature of the world. I often tell myself that “Life is Chaos.” This is to mean life has conflict. But that conflict only makes the world more meaningful. I feel as if many of us have been fed this idea that we are entitled to a life without conflict or challenges. Maybe that’s just my generation, but I can feel this idea echoing in my head. Above all, I do not think too many people have been properly taught to deal with adversity.
So we’ve barred ourselves from the world and have allowed technology to act as a substitution.
As an aspiring fantasy writer, I feel as if this is part of why so many of us are attracted to fiction, both writing it, watching it, reading it, and playing it. We use art to channel our need for a world where there are challenges and powers to overcome them without isolation. Instead, the more our favorite characters and avatars advance in skill, they seek out greater challenges while we’d rather watch reality tv instead of going to a party.
Personally, I feel as if humans are weak. I think this because when we make progress, we don’t grow stronger. We get fatter, slower, and dumber. After all, there’s clearly a difference between me vs an ancient Nordic warrior. I worry if that’s just the way human nature is, that we are programmed to be this way. I worry that there are less and less opportunities for socialization, and eventually humans will exist in a totally isolated lifestyle cut off from the world except for work or school. Even then, we may just let technology them.
I crave human contact. I just don’t know how to get it.
No, I’m not asking for help. I just felt the need to say this.