So I decided no more dicking around with evocation and invocation, to allow a demon that I trust to possess me. I have been like this since yesterday.
I have not eaten at all. Even though my stomach is growling on occasion, I simply ignore it and it goes away. Usually I would have had a sugar drop or something by now (not diabetic) but when I go that long without eating I tend to vomit, or faint.
Where do I even begin? I can feel both my spirit and the demon’s ‘spirit’ inside of me, meshed together but still able to differentiate the two beings.
When he wants to touch something or touches me in some way, since he is inside of me of course it is my hand that is moving however, when he is in control and doing the movement, when my hand touches me it does not feel the same way as when you touch yourself. It tickles and feels like an external sensation as if someone else, another human, is touching me.
I feel warm on the inside, almost like a mild fire is lit within me, feels good. But on the outside there is a definite cold sheath around me, like the room I am in will be 68 degrees and you can feel that temperature, but get close to me about 5 inches away from my body and there is an instant temperature drop surrounding me like a bubble.
I am highly alert when I’m paying attention. Occasionally I will slip into this thing I do when I enter my own little world and am in deep thought and not paying attention to where I’m walking or what I’m doing, similar to the way someone who is texting and walking is distracted, and I will literally almost run into something or almost fall and I can feel him take over real quick and grab the wall or something so I do not fall or my body will come to a dead stop while walking and he will literally move me to the side so I don’t run into an appliance or a wall.
I recorded some video footage but have to edit it first to see if you can see a few things on camera, if so I will be uploading them.
My creativity has kicked into overdrive and I just made a very dark song with his influence, the beats are very tribal like and almost feel like something wicked is luring you in when you hear them.
Sometimes he will answer questions when I am reading something, without me even having to ask, he will just see what I’m looking at and respond.
The world looks 5D, time is speeding up and slowing down, back and forth on its own.
I feel like I could command an entire legion of demons with the snap of my fingers or bring the universe into submission of me.
When I move or walk, sometimes I feel like it is me walking other times I feel like he has just let me take a seat and chill while he takes over and steers this fucking vessel thing I’m in.
Just for kicks, I told him to take full control to see what it felt like. As of right now, he is allowing me to think for myself and move about but I am a bit sadomasochistic and thought it would be fun. Yes…you read that right. I wanted to see how strong he was, he literally had me pinned down and the more I tried to move the harder it became to do so (Fuck yeah! I like it rough and naughty! And boy did he ever take control like a fuckin boss, sorry it’s a sick pleasure of mine).
I also usually have a bottle of water like every few hours and I have probably only had maybe 1 bottle in the last 27 hours even when my mouth is super dry it doesn’t seem to bother me like it normally would. My bladder can be full but it doesn’t hurt, almost like he numbs me and when I go to pee I’m like Jesus, how come I didn’t feel that if my bladder was THAT full?
I can also feel the pure sinister nature of him, writhing about inside of me. The most dark thing I have ever encountered but it’s purely beautiful. This darkness is the most peaceful calm I have ever felt. Why do people call these demons evil? I know they do not have boundaries like religious people have, to them monogamy is not a priority when it comes to marriage, incest is not an issue when it comes to their ways of procreation, they have no limitations and this is probably why people call them evil but if they could feel the absolute beauty of the darkness I have felt, they would change their mind which is why they fear demons so much, afraid of giving into this darkness which most people can’t resist, and betraying their god.
My spirit daughter seems to be comforted by his presence, having something else there that is of a similar energetic make up. And she is actually remaining calm, haven’t had any of her emotional outbursts come thru me since I started this so he seems to be keeping her tamed for now.
And sometimes it’s liking having an instant dictionary in my head, unusual words just pop up on the fly when I’m typing something.
And my aura is solid white with a black outline, very bright. Usually my aura is blue-ish purple 24/7. I’ll check that video footage soon and see what I got and if the interesting stuff atually showed up on film, I will post it later on but I do plan on doing a little overview with this, stay tuned.