Dude, why are you so desperate that you’re willing to basically do ANYTHING for magickal training?
My teacher recommends reading the complete works of Carlos Castaneda, which were required reading material for her in the LHP Order she was a part of.
Also, Dion Fortune has 2 books I would read: Psychic Defense and the mystikal Kabbalah.
Read those 2 books as well.
Oh, and when you read the works of Castaneda, DO NOT practice Dream Sorcery. A LOT of arrogant sorcerors have practiced despite the constant warning neophytes are given, thinking it will be a cake walk to pass through yhe second gate into the third and say no to the Scouts. Here’s the thing: they’re possibly the slickest used car salesmen this world has ever known. They can see right through to the core of your unconcious mind and xan see all your fantasies and they are MASTER manipulators. They will VERY likely get you to trade away your freedom in exchange for some bullshit and then you will be trapped in that barren place in the astral realm indefinitely. You DO NOT want that.
Otherwise, Castaneda is a little known secret among high level dark adepts it seems. The fact that he’s been so widely discredited amd rebuked for how he lived his personal life is theorized by my teacher to probably be why his works are even allowed to exist at all.
Dion Fortune has a really good take on the Kabbalah from what I have heard. Stufying Kabbalah is a BIG deal because it basically serves as a blueprint for one’s consciousness. By understanding your consciousness, ypu understand your Will and it’s effects on others. On top of that, you develop your chakra points by applying what you learn to your life and once you have developed all 3 lower chakras enough and begun work in the upper 2, you become what is known as an “Adept” which basically means that with that energetic configuration, ypu have access to magick NATURALLY because you habe developed so thoroughly as to start piercing the veil. That being said, if you intend to be a POSITIVE adept you develop the anahata (4th chakra, aka green aka heart aka unconditional love chakra) as well. Negative adepts deliberately skip the anahata, rejecting unconditional love and compassion towards others, deliberately keeping it closed. Either way, if you develop enough along the kabbalah, you will eventually develop your chakras enough to easilly and naturally access magick. Spellwork and rituals will become less and less necessary the more you develop as an adept. RHP orders tend to study the Sephirotg and LHP orders tens to study the night tree, which in common LHP circles is known as the Qliphoth. My teacher says that the secret orders have their own different version of the night tree and that the Qlippoth is more of the night tree as understood from an RHP perspective (projection) but I cannot agree or disagree because I am way too green and because I have never seen nor studied this “secret” night tree. Plenty of LHP types around here seem to find the Qliphoth useful, so whatever. My teacher has an unusual modality for an occultist: she teaches both. First the day tree then the night tree. Most occult orders don’t do that. LHP orders study only the night tree and RHP orders study only the day tree. Typically only the Jews study BOTH but it happens. The RHP Orders say it is an “impure” practice to study both, whatever that means. My teacher believes the two are incomplete without each other amd it would seem the religion that created the Kabbalah agrees. Study of astrology and/or tarot for the purpose of self study can also deepen one’s understanding of the Kabbalah it seems, but the Kabbalah is more intricate from what I have heard. Most study Tarot amd astrology for Divination. For Divination via the tarot, Shannon L Matteson seema to know his stuff. As for astrology for Divination I was given a great recommendation once by Shannon himself but I forgot what it was. Seems high level divinative astrology requires math though. If so, probably not my cup of tea LOL I don’t know where the best source to learn astrology for study of the archetypal mind is though.
You might also want to look up popular or classic grimoires, as a lot of occultists seem to read those. Ask for suggestions on those too if you want.
If sex magick is your thing, Aleister Crowley was WELL KNOWN for that sort of thing, as well as bringing in the practices of the Golden Dawn to the public eye and drawing attention to the works of Eliphas Levi, so might wanna learn more on them later if your interested.
Other than that, just ask people on here for recommendations. I’m sure thwy have plenty, plus they post their stuff on this site as well.
Also, this site promotes certain books like the stuff of EA Koeting it seems. He seems to make LHP stuff, which I’m not into, but if you are, he has a lot of books that this site promotes so there’s the official BALG endorsement.
Otherwise just use Google and Youtube and see what cool shit you take an interest in.
Other than that, I dunno, but you might want to ask around.
Limited advice for now I know. Hope I can help you more later