I feel because of my condition, I was robbed of my communication skills, and thus every friendship I could’ve had. So instead I have to apologize for who I am and even refrain from talking to other people. I just want to have a good relationship with others, but I can’t. Still, people judge me and tease me for it and I can’t do shit. I’m scared to go to any authority figure because they might bring up some accusation of me.
So I want to use mercury’s Energies to curse someone. I want to rob them of their social skills just as I was. I want them to know what’s it like to feel like they need to apologize for being who they are. I want them to be judged and teased in the same way they’ve done to me. Not forever, but long enough so they understand what I’ve deal with. Or if they don’t learn, I don’t care what happens to them. I’m tired of trying to be nice and friendly just for people to treat me like a monster.