I made a comment on a thread this week regarding my succumbus and how I have been shoving her away whenever she comes around.
3 nights ago, I woke up in the midst of my sleep and she was there on top of me, I had no idea how she did it but I was facing up when I woke up.
I got so scared that my heart was beating really fast and I resisted her by while I tried to keep moving for about a minute or so until she disappeared.
And now I feel like she must be really upset with me but the thing is it’s not like I don’t want her I do but I just get so scared whenever I feel her presence.
I need a help to deal with my fears In order to stop shoving her away, I feel so sad and it hurts me that I’m doing that to her.
I have no idea how to set his alter, I don’t have a lot as I’m a struggling student, and I’m completely new to magic and all. I also just read a couple threads about Azazel. I know he could be protective and intimidating but I don’t know more about him. What exactly is he capable of I need to know what I’m getting into lol
So It’s 12pm noon where I’m at and she came last night while I was trying to sleep. She didn’t stay for so long at all but I felt her kissing me up to my neck and that really tickled me I didn’t even know when I shrugged her off and she left after some seconds but I noticed I wasn’t all that scared this time around😇
It’s like sleep paralysis everytime she comes. And I’ve been feeling her presence since I was younger I’d say about 8/10 years back. But she’s been visiting very frequently this year.
I didn’t see her, I’ve never seen her because she comes in the dark, and asides from the threads I’ve read on here you can’t see her with the two eyes but only my imagination or the mind’s eye or something like that.
But I have always felt her hands on my arms, she once gave me an oral earlier this year which I mentioned on a different thread. But I have never seen her with my eyes.
To start with, use a red or black candle. It can be any kind of candle, pretty much. I use votives for safety, but you can use whatever you can get your hands on. A glass of water. If you have any, green tea, a cigarette, or something sweet (home baked if possible, or something really nice - not the supermarket junk). Use sandalwood incense, or copal resin. A drop of your blood on his sigil would help forge a link and to empower the operation. Look for symbols, herbs, stones, etc that are associated with Azazel (research this) and place them on his altar. Read books on Azazel for immersion purposes. Recite his enn 108 times a day if you can. There are enn chanting videos on YouTube that you can meditate to - the best I’ve found are from Satan and Sons and Satania. Orlee Stewart has a video about working with new deities and what should go on altars, etc.
I used to have this problem so I understand. Do you have religious background? That could be part of it. Mainstream normies are taught that the demonic is all scary and for Christians it’s worse cause you’re taught the demonic is all scary AND real. And it is real, but not all scary - though it can be cause of the dark nature of these entities. Years ago I used to have no fears at all when awake, but when I’d sleep and my incubus would come to visit me I would be afraid. It’s very strange, but I guess that’s subconscious fears in-built deeply from religion. We get afraid of their “evil” and of damning ourselves to hell for eternity.
My advice input is to try to pull her to you while awake. Light a candle and lay back and psychically summon her as much as you can. That way you can face the fear head on and as you familiarize yourself with her the fear might wear away.
Yes, I was born into a Christian family and I used to go to church 7 days a week but when I gained admission into University 4 years ago in a different state. I slowed down from going to church weekly to once in a month and now I don’t even go no more, maybe once in a year lol.
And yes I’ll try this though my bed is kinda tall. Do I just light the candle on the floor and lay back on my bed