Listen dear, Life isn’t short there is plenty of time to still get out from this situation, sooner or later you will find a way out and everything in your life will be exactly as you dreamed of.
Remember the qoute “this too shall pass”
My life was exactly like you, even though I’m a boy when I was a teenager I used to get abused physically, mentally and sexually.
I still do have major scars on my body, because of these stuff I was unable to connect with other people in school. I used to just sit alone in the corner and wonder about other kids being so happy and making friends whereas I was sitting alone with no friend.
And due to all these stuff happening to me I had To deal with insomnia at a early age and at that period of my life I lost my grandfather who I loved the most, I lost my little brother. My life was a complete mess.
Now I won’t go and write the whole story but now I look back and think those things and sufferings only made me stronger, the beatings, the blood, the loneliness, sore & crying eyes, not having friends, not even a single person to share your feelings.
What I am trying to tell you is that life is rough sometimes and it is not always joy and happiness. We get to deal with shit so that we can become stronger than we were.
Scars and sufferings are a blessing my friend embrace it, tell the world that you aren’t afraid.
Tell yourself that no matter what happens you are a giant, strong enough to conquer your destiny.
In the end you will look back and laugh that those things only made you stronger not weaker.
And if you ever feel lonely know that you got me and many other who will be willing to talk to you. We all are friends and family.
Now wipe those tears and stand up, face your fears.