As I’ve expressed before my family is moving down south. I’ve known about this move for a year. Though there’s never been a date, so it’s been hanging over my head. So I tried to fill my time here with as many activities as possible. Then came covid, and three full months of staying home.
Within those three months, I’ve had to end a friendship of more than 7 years. I met another girl who’s just so anxious it’s not even worth talking to her. I tried hanging out with this nieghbor of mine who’s 4 years younger than me. I tried reconnecting with an old classmate after thinking she moved back in with her parents, but she didn’t and I found out she’s married with kids. I feel so old, though I’m 25. My only contact with the outside world are fetlife zoom meetings and I’m terrible in groups.
Recently, I found an outlet. I started attending the blm protests. I’ve been to three and it’s been nothing but bliss till I get home. Then I’m just depressed. However, recently I’ve been told I can’t go to anymore because the house can’t sell if I’m exposed to covid.
Because of covid, I can’t go to events, meet people, or just chill out at the library. Because of this move, I can’t perform rites, can’t go to protests, can’t even have spices or hot sauce. I’m stuck at home, desperate to talk to someone that I’m not related to. I hate this!
I’ve decided that if I’m gonna move, then I’ll just move. When my family takes stuff to nc, he stays in a house belonging to my late grandparents. I’ve decided to go with them and stay for a month. Hopefully there I’ll get more freedom than I have up here. They tell me that the town is in stage 2 of opening back up. So to the least, maybe I could go play at a local Game shop. I can return to practices. But what I really want to do is go to these protests. I want to be useful. I hate how I can’t go to them here.