I’ve decided to do some changes to my self, starting with how my brain is wired, and my non existent sex drive.
With how my brain is wired I dont really understand when my boyfriend is trying to be romantic, or other cues he gives off. It can be like he’s trying to talk to a brick wall lol. I’m asexual, and I want to try to change that or as much as I can with some help.
I know there’s alot of Demons, Angels, and deities who can help, but I’m not sure who excels in changing how one’s brain functions. I have thought of Lilith or Asmoday but I want to hear if anyone has a better deity in mind.
I would ask them to possess me and change my energy body and brain to no longer be asexual, but to be more romantic and to have a healthy sex drive for a 25 year old, to change my sexual orientation from asexual to bisexual.
My boyfriend is also a Dominant and is into bdsm, and he’s also a sadist, pain is just pain for me. I dont react in the way he wants which is upsetting to him, so I want to change it so I’m more masochistic.
I have a few ideas as to what I can give them in return, letting them experience what I do for 6 months, giving my orgasms as offerings for 6 months, and when I finally make an alter they’ll have one of there own.
So does anyone have any idea who would be interested in this kind of pact? I’m thinking Asmoday or Lilith. But it never hurts to have additional input before doing something like this, also I would love to hear any advice you would want to offer.
Unless your boyfriend has other qualities that make it worth staying with him I suggest you get rid of him instead of rewiring your brain to be honest.
ARE you asexual? Because I know that I am and I never saw a reason to change it (yes, I can and will perform for my partner who is not asexual but I never had the urge to “change”). Maybe you had different kind of tendencies from the very beginning but you had to undermine them for whatever reason.
I don’t know a single demon that could accomplish this, but have you thought of undergoing the 72 Challenge, and evoking all the spirits of the Goetia to open the aspects of the mind they represent?
Yes I’m asexual, the reason why I want to change it is for my boyfriends sake.
I love my boyfriend and it’s very difficult for him to be happy, when he feels like shit for meeting his needs, so if I can change my sexual orientation from asexual to bisexual for him I will.
He’s done so much for me, the least I can do for him is this. He has a lot of good qualities, he’s sacrificed alot for me.
@DarkestKnight I plan on undergoing the 72 challenge this summer, my abilities aren’t quite up to par yet to be doing it right now.
Ooof.
Okay, the thing is: if he makes you feel bad for something that you ARE and you can NOT change you should drop it like its hot because you will end up with making yourself very very unhappy.
IF you should feel like you could get certain kinds of kinks and pleasure and entertainment from anything that flew under your radar for whatever reason its cool and its worthy to explore, BF or not.
I told my SO from the very start what was up with me and that I would never be able to lunge myself at him out of pure lust and that he would make the steps and drop the hints if he wanted business from me. He is happy enough with it but I always told him that he is free to go if it would become a problem for him at any given point because I know that I am NOT able to change it (and yes, I have experience with spiritual sex but I can not translate it into the mundane. Its not the same and I accept it as such).
Does he know about your state of sexuality?What does he think about it?
He doesn’t make me feel bad at all for it, he tries his hardest to hide how he feels.
He knows I’m not romantic at all and has no sex drive, it frustrates him sometimes, but he does his best to respect me and he doesn’t try to change me.
Thats a good start because it gives you the space to not change yourself out of some external force. The question is if you feel a self motivated nudge because you are interested and curious in general. This is the rootwork for any kind of “make spirit XY assist me in my endeavours”. If you don’t feel a motivation for yourself to “change” it (I really hate that word in this context) every work with the help of a spirit will have some kind of forced touch and it COULD traumatize you in the long run.
I do want to change to better myself, but also for my boyfriend. I’m not happy with the way I am. Also I’m not asking Belial to help me in this because, he’s my spiritual father and I just find that weird asking him to change my sexual orientation.
I hope you’ll find what you’re looking for and that it will be a source of fulfillment rather than a “I need to change” mindset. Because you seriously don’t “need to”. But you are free to explore and to find something that gives you pleasure and confidence.
Hi, this girl is asexual and has a dom who I think is a sadic if I am not mistaken, she has some videos about being asexual in BDSM, it may help you in the mean time while you transform, I assume that changing your sexuality may take time.
You lack the ability to decipher his sexual cues…I don’t think this makes u asexual. You orgasm while having sex so thats not really asexual. If you were asexual, u wouldn’t permit anyone to have sex with u because u’d feel uninterested. It seems more like u cannot decipher his social sexual cues…which is something else. Someone asexual, probably wouldn’t want to change their sexual orientation, because it wouldn’t matter to them…js
You might try finding something you are interested in and further exploring that, also work on diet, physical fitness etc… which can increase the sex drive.
But kinks are something different and most people are ashamed of theirs and hide it, if you aren’t bi or a sadist that is perfectly okay. I think so much access to porn has made people think that is the norm when it really isn’t.
Pretty sure asexuals can still orgasm, doesn’t make them exactly not asexual o.o a handful of asexuals have sex without really being interested and orgasms aren’t based on interest.
