I need to contact the best Demon to work with to “destroy” the current me and then build me back up, guid me, teach me to grow into the best version of me for my self, my wife and our daughter.
I’ve made a few posts asking for advice on drinking, work and several Demonic entity’s but this one come from deep down inside me, I hate ME, I’m an alcoholic, I’m a compulsive liar, so much to the point that sometimes I believe my own lies, that I just continue to lie to cover up lies and so on.
I fuckin hate myself and my decisions and I want it to change but I need help, I need a Demon that will totally destroy the current me, but then be there to help me rebuild the new me with their wisdom, guidance and support.
I’ve read a lot about Belial, Azazel, Lucifer and King Paimon. But I don’t know where to turn to get a quick no bullshit approach, but without destroying parts of my life I need to survive and support my family.
I’ve had a strong pull towards Lucifer ever since I began this path and I fully believe Lucifer gave me some fatherly help monitarily not that long ago, but have had trouble hearing him, I can open his sigil quickly but beyond that I can’t seem to totally connect, maybe because alcohol is such a problem for me and causes me to not be completely in sync with Lucifer and other demonic entities.
That said, I can’t have my wife and daughter taken from me, especially my daughter, she’s the only reason I’m here, she’s my world. The reason I bring this up is because I’ve read Azazel will quickly remove “obsticals”. My daughter is in no way an obstical and my wife is becoming more and more open about my path I speak to her openly about my spiritual draw to Licifer and I do not want to lose either of them, I want to become the best version of me for myself, my wife and our daughter. My daughter never having heard my pull towards Lucifer defended me one night to my wife, (my daughter is six) my wife was kind of put out that I wear a ring with Lucifers sigil, my daughter grabbed my hand with the ring, looked at my wife and said, “Lucifer comforts daddy”. I have no idea where that came from.
I know there is a lot of mention in my post of Lucifer but I’m looking for options from those those that have seen my previous posts and this one that can offer some insight as to where to turn. I’m at that point where I can’t seem to help myself and I have a great respect for the Demonic royalty and their power and the fact I’m tired of my current self that is toxic as it gets in regards to drinking and lies as it comes.
This is a true cry for help and advice, and I appreciate all of you and the help you offer.