From my research, paganism is more than believing in a pre-Christian pantheon or participating in Pre-Christian esoteric practices or holidays. Pagan cultures, as I’m taught, held to beliefs of world acceptance, meaning to accept the nature of the world and actively interact with it. As opposed to belief systems that involve transcending the world into the metaphysical.
What I’m gathering is that the ideas of world accepting and world denying are not things I typically focus on. Instead, I tend to focus on the ideas personal freedom vs personal responsibility. Or more specifically, whether I have the right to do what I want, be who I want, identify as I want, and live as or where I want vs having to follow a path already set out in front of me by an outside source whether it be society, nature, or The divine. Do my desires come in conflict with the already established status quo? And if so, do I have the right to go after them in-spite of that? Do I have a responsibility to myself or the collective. Do the needs of the group triumph over my own?
While world acceptance and world denying are not the focus of my own ideology, they do seem to interact. Unfortunately, I feel as if it’s only human nature to accept or embrace aspects of nature that suit them and deny or try to escape from those that don’t. And I feel as if, as a magician, that’s what I’m doing. That’s what every magician is doing. We use magick to bring about things we want and ward off things that we don’t.
I guess one of the goals I want to accomplish as a magician is to project my mind back in time and redo some part of my younger life. The initial reason is to prevent a depression, but I would also want to re-experience the innocence that comes with it. Overall, I’d say I want to accomplish this feat simply so I can say that I did. The very deed would be quite a symbolic act of taking control of ones destiny out of the hands of fate. Whether or not this is possible remains to be determined.
I’m not sure if this is truly an ideology of world acceptance or denial. It’s more of an ideology of rebellion; one rooted in self centered intentions.