May 5, 2022
So tonight I chose the color Black, which is funny because I ended up doing the candle meditation around midnight in the pitch blackness of my room.
Anyway, after the usual prep I got to raising my energy. This time the energy felt slightly thicker, as if it was endless, and I felt this darkness consume my entire insides. It made me feel empty, like there was nothing but just that energy….
After raising the energy and attributes within myself, I did the same thing I did with the previous candles, and slowly but surely, I felt the energy and attributes leave me and go into the candle wax. Burning away as the wick itself burned, after I contemplated the meditation, I blew the candle out and went to bed.
As I was staring into the flame, in the smallest blue part of the flame, I though I saw a skull, which makes sense, as black symbolizes death.
Second Side Note
Also, I looked up the symbolism for Cobras and found this interesting.
“The cobra symbolizes wisdom, changes, enchantment, hypnosis, protectiveness, danger, poison, determination, fear, strength, sexuality, sexual urges, courage, confidence, transformation, royalty, death. They are also a symbol of speed, defensiveness, and gracefulness.”
(Quoted from : https://dreamastromeanings.com/cobra-spirit-animal-totem-symbolism-and-meaning/ )
The main attributes of the cobra that make sense in context are “Sexual Urges” and “Death” as they can be connected to “M*rder” and “Rape”.