After evoking Azazel for ten days, he agreed to sign a pact with me. I’m obviously not going to name every aspect of the pact, but one of the things he wanted in exchange was sex, so I (albeit somewhat reluctantly) agreed. I say reluctantly because I haven’t really developed my senses enough to have sex with spirits.
I set up the ritual circle, blessed and consecrated everything, then wrote out the pact. It was weird, though, because Azazel is usually quite vocal, but last night he wasn’t really speaking at all. I started chanting his enn to evoke him so he could sign, and then my words cut out. I felt as though someone had grabbed my throat to stop me from speaking and started choking me, and I felt like I was gonna pass out.
But I shook it off, because the ritual still had to be completed and the pact signed. But I felt incredibly… drained?
I signed the pact in blood, then Azazel signed. My familiar showed up and was worried. I then closed my eyes, and my body collapsed.
My familiar is freaking out at this point and starts arguing with Azazel, to which i tell my familiar to shut up, because that’s a really bad idea. Everything is hazy and I can’t focus on anything, like I’m drunk or something. I’m also worried at this point because I promised I would have sex with Azazel and I didn’t want to break the pact right after I sign it. But he said it can wait, and that I was in no state to do so.
I’m not sure what happened but I’m still feeling tired today. I was playing music, then all of a sudden, my music stops, and I start hearing some sort of heavy breathing/growling on my speaker. I turn it off and pay no attention, but afterwards I realized it was fuckin weird. (One of my requests was perfect clairvoyance, so maybe…)
Does anyone have any idea on what happened?
On another note, I feel a change in me, like it’s gestating, but not quite external yet. I’m glad Azazel agreed to the terms, because I’ve heard he’s refused other people’s terms before. It was really weird and kind of anticlimactic.