I cannot see him, nor can I hear him. But I felt him and I “thought” him. The problems with this method is that.
- He can’t really give me any info I don’t already know. Barely, anyways.
- Hard to distinguish between my thoughts and his words.
He was a teacher, to say the least. Talked to me about the elements, what they meant, and how to apply them to everyday life and practice. Talked about balance. Water, then fire, then air, then earth.
A few other things happened as we conversed. It’s dark in my room, with a little light shining through the blinds. One of the rays hit something that has curved glass. He asked me to gaze into the ray (which contorted into a small light)
Soon enough, the area around the light completely disappeared, but I kept refocusing and everything re-appeared. He said this practice will highly develop what I’m after (sight, understanding of elements etc)
I wanted to give up. It was so hard and I didn’t know why it would help. How it would help. He said I should destroy the weakness making me want to give up. I tried, and it mostly worked but eventually we both saw it wouldn’t get anywhere tonight. He left.
I’m still trying to decide if these were my thoughts or his words. It’s so frustrating.