I have for the longest time held back; unable to progress. Unable to enter gnostic states, trouble meditating, etc. When I was 17, I attempted my first astral projection. And that first time was my most successful attempt ever. I was able to relax completely and make it to the state of total body vibration. But at that time, I didn’t know what to expect, so when the vibration began I had not a clue what was happening… Thinking it it may indicate I’m on the threshold of projection (which I later found out was exactly that) but after some 5 minutes of total body vibration, I stapped myself out of it. Since then, I’ve NEVER been able to get back in to a similar state.
These people I am going to see remove Jinn and other kinds of possession… Which I think may have something to do with this. Everytime I meditate, my parts of my body move of their own accord… Sometimes my entire body ‘spasming.’ For instance, my arm will snap out and back, knocking something over. Or my leg will snap out. And yeah, sometimes my entire body lifts off the bed and back… I just don’t know what it is but I know SOMETHING is preventing me from doing what I want.