I am losing it!

I am screaming on the inside. My marriage fell apart, and I continue to deal with custody issues and money issues, which was never an issue before his affair. I have no motivation to do my coursework, and my GPA is dropping by the week, I’m dealing with health issues which leave me no energy to begin with, and in the last month I have managed to make time for meditation approximately once. Between all the bullshit, I can’t seem to find the time nor energy to focus on my magick and it’s really pissing me off, as I feel the progress I made has been undone. I’ve been sick, sick and tired, and I’m just done. Not with magick, just everything. Ugh! Just needed to vent, thanks for reading. Hopefully I’ll get it together soon.

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I understand. I truly do.

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Oh, and the two friends I do have probably think I’m dead cause I haven’t contacted them in weeks.

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Sorry for what u r going through sweetie
If u can find just one hour a day to be alone it just gonna be enough to do ur meditation… If u developed ur senses already can evock&invock spirits, demons or angels … They would help u through all that shit … Wish u get everything done in the best way u want it soon sweetie

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Thank you, both. I just have to re-focus and get back on track. This stupid battle between me and my husband (not divorced yet!). It’s been going on for a year now, and I have let it get the better of me, and the last week been battling my kids lice, which they received from his mistress and her unkempt children. And she won’t even check her kids because “they couldn’t possibly have lice.” Makes me sick. So now I have to treat my kids every time they come home. Ugh. Sorry for rambling… I just have to let it all go and get back on the right (left) path. Thank you again, truly.

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I am really sorry u have to go through this and if i could do anything to help i would. But i know that all bad times eventually do end and i know u can handle it, you’re strong​:blush: i believe in you​:black_heart::black_heart:

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I could try my mirror but idk if it works since idk you personally but i will wish for strength and health 100%

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Thank you. I very much appreciate it.

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Oh no problem! Thank u for being brave enough to tell us about ur problems

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Damn I feel for you. I know what it’s like to have your whole life crumble to pieces right in front of you. Been through it twice haha. One thing man is that you’ll come back stronger than ever. It’s a little cliche, but it’s the truth. Another cliche thing is the quote “this too shall pass” life is full of ups and downs. Know that in life there are seasons where you’re so high that you’re soaring and also that you’ll be so low that you’ll be looking up at everyone. That’s how life is. The only thing we can do is to prepare for the worst case scenario. I hope my words can help you in one way or another. Good luck :+1:t4:.

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You are lost now but you’ll find your way.
Revolutions in life/society happen for a reason and they leave nasty scars on us.
If anything magic has taught me that change is much needed and practicing magic destroys our safe mental space to make room for a whole new universe.
You’re not first or last to end up with your life in ruins.
My modus operandi when dealing with bad situations in life is to close myself in and deep deep down in the darkness there’s always a spark to lift me up.
Don’t ask for help from other humans beings because 45% are happy to see you in ruins,50% don’t care about your problems and 5% care about you.
Those 5% are hard to find.
I can only put my imaginary hand on your shoulder and whisper “This will pass too.”

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Thank you all for your support. Today, a custody arrangement was agreed upon and signed, so one step closer to some peace of mind, anyway. The rest will come in time, I’m sure. Just wanted to say thanks again.

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All hard times end. You will make it through this. I had a year pass by without realizing that I even existed due to dissociation. You are on the right track and will triumph.

Always remember to give yourself some time each day to live in the moment and be true to yourself.

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I’m feeling much better and stronger today. Just wanted to say thank you for your good wishes!

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im going through the same shit.

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No problem! I’m glad my powers still work haha or my mirror atleast

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Im really glad you are and i hope it gets only better from now on dear

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Are your kids okay too?

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Try to see it for the test it is, it’s probably going to take you to the edge of what you can handle but you know what? You can do it because you know it’s just a test that will make you way stronger when you get out on the other side of it.
This to will come to pass! Always know that.

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Yeah, they’re doing ok, thanks for asking. I’m just going to have to keep doing comb outs, because I know their father and his mistress won’t be bothered to take care of their lice problem, sadly. Maybe now school is starting they’ll have to do something about it. All I can do is take care of mine when they’re with me. :neutral_face: Thanks again!

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