Hey BALG,
Fair warning this is a rant, also I will probably try to keep this as light and funny as possible because that is how I roll. There will be a TL;DR at the end.
I just lost a lot of respect for some occult authors that have been a huge influence in my path thus far and it saddens me.
I love to listen to podcasts at the gym along with music. I was listening to a recent one that took place at a convention in which one author I respected made a passing comment about our movement. That would have been fine, I know people have their own opinions and they are entitled to them. But it didnât stop there, for a few minutes the presenters on the panel laughed and joked about our movement in a very dismissive manner.
Maybe if I was further into my workout and the endorphins were pumpinâ I might have been able to ignore it, but it hurt. See, I have never belonged to any occult order and I practice solo. I jumped from forum to forum and never felt as home as I have here. Here I can participate in discussions and even with differing opinions no one has ever attacked me. Sure people can question me and call bullshit when they think it is appropriate, but it is always in a respectful manner. That is why I love it here. From -TWF- being so accurate with his readings that I suspect he may actually be from the future, Defectron making egrigores( I canât spell) that are functionally Gods themselves, Necromaster being a god damn magus at age 19, Lady Evaâs general badassery, and the conversations I had with Serrell, the1gza, and Kokuto about making strides with Hecate and Belial, hell even Sunas (because no one can seem to fucking touch him). None of these people would be here if this was all just bullshit. And it pisses me off when someone shits on us like that.
The thing that gets me about these authors is that I have some of their books and the basic techniques in their books are the same basic techniques that are in E.A.'s books. Sure E.A. may have a darker vibe about some subjects, but a lot of the basic techniques are the same. If anything I like E.A.'s style better because I donât have to wade through 12 chapters discussing the historical significance of magic. He usually just has one or two intro chapters that so the completely new magician is not lost and then E.A. dives right into the practical application of the techniques.
It steams me that these authors (Most of whom are RHP/ white light) rag on us, while we (Most of whom are LHP/ Black magicians) donât say a whole lot of negative stuff about other authors.
Oh fuck I seem to have lost myself in the rage typingâŚI better end it here. I guess I am just saying that I feel at home here and I would like to thank you all for not acting like stuck up assholes, it makes my path easier to walk.
TL;DR: I lost some respect for some occult authors, felt butthurt but remembered that yaâll have made this site like a home for me. So thank you.