I’ve had it with feeling hopeless, powerless, and helpless.
Every ‘good’ thing in my life just seems to be a dangling carrot with some asshole jockey whipping me in the ass every time I try to veer one way or the other.
I want to be a Christian, but I dont want to be a ascetic poor one, that does no good in my opinion.
On the other hand, every time I have prayed to the demonic kings in the past and then saw an image of Christ, I was enraged with pure hatred at the image.
I dont want either of those. So, how to just play the middle with Koettings material as an aid? I also dont want entities hanging around in my residence, be they good, evil or neutral other than my cat and I.
A neophyte pissed off at being and feeling powerless, hopeless, helpless, ashamed, ridiculed, poor spiritually and materially, and generally pissed off and afraid of everything. – Fuego