Am I,then,the only one who has had absolutely no issues with this?
I grew up a Muslim.I have no disdain towards the Islamic faith.I do not hate Allah,or any of his prophets.Nor have I ever in my life.Iāve been doing magick,for a while now.And I have never experienced any backlash.
When I first started in magick,I didnāt start in Wicca.I started in Sufi mysticism,and writing Arabic in a circle,and calling on whatever entity I could.
When I moved further into the fields of black magick,I had absolutely no problem.I mean,I stopped relying on Godās patronage,but then again,I had no patronage.I was autonomous.
When I started to evoke any demons,angels or other spirits,all of them seemed so down to Earth and willing to share with me their power,that they felt more like brothers and sisters to me,that I could never consider any of them my superior.
Iāve never parted with Allah,as he can still fully answer my prayers(and oddly enough,he does in the majority of cases),and I have yet to part with any of my apotropaics.I still use exorcisms from the Qurāan if need be,and stuff.
So it feels weird to say this,but is Allah,the jealous god of supreme monotheism actually approving of my black magic?It certainly doesnāt feel right,from a rational,religious perspective,but on a magical level,itās irrefutable.
So,either the entity Iāve known as Allah,isnāt the same entity as most people know,or my own lack of hate isnāt making him too clingy to me?
Just to clarify,my grandmother is and was a Muslim,so was and is my uncle,and the majority of my family is too.My mom and dad,however,were both agnostics,my dad in particular disliking religious stuff(hating how people fasting tend to sleep most of the day away without doing anything productive and stuff),whereas my mom seemed thoroughly interested in religions outside of Islam,like Christianity,or Buddhism,or such(a trait I would inherit,mind you),but never fully embraced any faith.Still remaining agnostic.
So,the home I grew up in did not shove Islam down my throat,it did not make me go to the mosque every Friday,nor did it make sure I didnāt practice sihr(although,theyād still be devastated to learn about my magick,not because they think itās evil,but because they think itās delusional childās play)
I also didnāt go to Mekteb,Kuttab,or attend any R.E. Islam-oriented classes,nor did I know any arabic prayers.
the only interactions I had with my religion were,when necessary,me and my visualizations,released into the aether through prayer,and boom,those prayers were almost always answered.
On a trip to Turkey,at the age of 7,I met a group of whirling derviÅ”.Unlike most of the hajjis I had met up to that point,they were rather open-minded people,but their primary emphasis was on the true road to knowledge being experience.And then they stressed the point that God wants to prove himself to you,so he made you capable of doubting and blah blah blah,long story short,I learned about Muraqaba and became thoroughly interested in it,spending the next summer(when certain less happy events happened at school) meditating at my grandmotherās.
I only got into anything relating to spirits,at the age of 12.So,I had never grown up with religious pressure,nor did I learn magic as a way to rebel against my parents or stand out.
In fact,my magic was and is to this day,something I keep so secret,almost no one in my life knows about it.You guys do,but you donāt know the majority of things of my other life.So,I couldnāt rebel or stand out,if I didnāt share any of it,and still fo not.
And I did not learn magic to satisfy some measly frivolous concern that I had at some time.Maybe the lack of religion in my upbringing,was a catalyst for me wanting to seek out some sort of spiritual side to my life,and finally settled on making that spiritual side black magic in order to give me everything I ever wanted?
I know not what brought me to magick,why Iām here,how Iām here,but I know I love it to no end,and so far there is no spiritual force that is stopping me.Any material forces stopping me donāt know about it.And I like it that way.
So,I never exactly parted with my old religion,and Iāve never had any trouble with itā¦in fact,when considering the end goal of Sufism being the annihilation of the self,through a dissolution into the all-loving heart of the divine,I began to use Allah,and the Eternal Source synonymously.It made sense to me,because Islam stresses a lot(perhaps way too much) the uniformity,eternity,etc. of the almighty.
Food for thought?Anyways,I do know many can,should,and do disagree.Not saying Iām right.Not calling myself a follower of Allah,loyal to him to the very end,and such,but I am also not calling myself a hater of the God,simply because I havenāt been carrying such resentments.
Blessings and giggles on everyone.And good luck breaking free of Jehovahās influence.As Iāve said,Iāve never had the god of my upbringing work against my magick,so I canāt exactly give you a good method for denouncing him.
