Ah, I feel you. Sometimes I feel this way, but if being honest, I normally don’t to spells for stuff I TRULY want. Instead, I do spells to set that up in the end. Otherwise, I may yearn for the result too much.
I’m positive that others can (hope they will) chime in. If you look on Reddit and similar places, you’ll find a lot of talk about Yearning for Results that can cause workings to backfire. Absolutely is a thing.
One way to deal with that is to place it in the hands of another being that you trust to take care of it for you. Say, you work out a deal with King Belial or King Paimon. If you trust in them, then you can call on them to assist your working. Your trust in them will help you reduce/remove the yearning for the working. But only if you 1) Trust them legitimately and 2) Are looking/lusting for the end result.
As EA and countless others have stated, you’ve left the results of the working in either trusted hands or to the Universe. Let them do the work for your efforts.
Hope it helps.