Since it’s the new year and all, and I’m sure many of us are currently reviewing spiritual and mundane goals, I figured this might be a good time to discuss the issue of ascent; what exactly is ‘ascent’? How do you interpret this word? What does the left-hand path mean to you? How do you interpret the phrase ‘becoming godlike’?
This is a subject that I have been pondering very deeply of late. I have come to the conclusion that these ideas mean different things to different people. So, I was thinking it would be useful to start a thread where we can compare and discuss our own personal interpretations of this. In other words, what I’m interested in is- what exactly, in practical terms, are your spiritual goals as a black magician? What is your ultimate goal as a practitioner on the left-hand path, and how would you say this end goal differs from that of the right-hand path?
I’ll begin by summarizing my own goals:
The use of magick and esoteric knowledge, to make my life (the here and now, in this body, on this plane), as enjoyable as possible. I believe that through the use of magick and occult techniques, it is possible to achieve everything that I want in life- I want to experience only that which I desire. I want to be the captain of my own life so to speak. I believe that this goal is shared, at least to some degree, by almost everyone on this forum.
In addition to using occult knowledge to improve the quality of my life on the physical plane, I wish to use occult techniques to gain some sort of transcendence (still within this lifetime though, and in this body) Basically, I believe that there is more to existence than what we as human beings currently experience. I believe that on other planes, consciousness may be more evolved and that the experience in these realms is somehow more blissful/more profound than our limited experience on the physical plane. This is a goal that I realize is not necessarily shared by others on this forum, and I know that many people do not share this view of the physical plane.
The search for truth. My third goal is to try to make sense of life/existence. I have always been interested in the whys and hows, the deeper questions in life. I believe that science can only go so far (at the moment at least) in answering these questions. In my opinion, currently only esoteric wisdom holds the keys to these answers.
Right, so those are my personal goals. Now on to the question of why I consider myself a ‘black magician’ and how I define the Left-hand path. Personally, I believe that the issue of morality is central to this question. The way I see it is if you as an individual refuse to submit or align to an external moral code, then you are likely a black magician. In other words, I live by my own rules, and decide for myself what is right and wrong. The implication of this is that, for example, I have no moral issue with baneful magick, something that a wiccan for example, would never condone.
Obviously there is more to the LHP than just the question of morals, but this is where things get a bit murkier. The way I see it is that the essence of the LHP is the ‘self’- the LHP embodies selfishness (but not in the way people generally use this term) and individuality. The LHP, in my opinion, is about non-conformity and elevating the self thus, ascent and becoming ‘godlike’.
Now, the other common definition of the LHP, and one that I know many people on balg subscribe to, is the view of the LHP as the path of ‘non-merger’ (with source). Now, I admit, this definition confuses me somewhat, and I’m trying to get a clearer understanding of what this really means, in everyday terms. This view is best summed up by Stephen Flowers in his book ‘The Lords of The Left Hand Path’. His definition has been quoted many times on here, but I will quote it again anyway:
“Essentially, the left-hand path is the path of nonunion with the objective universe. It is the way of isolating consciousness within the subjective universe and, in a state of self-imposed psychic solitude, refining the soul or psyche to ever more perfect levels. The objective universe is then made to harmonize itself with the will of the individual psyche instead of the other way around. When the right-hand path is theocentric, the left-hand path is psychecentric, or soul/self-centered. Those within the left-hand path may argue over the nature of this self/ego/soul, but the idea that the individual is the epicenter of the path itself seems undisputed. An eternal separation of the individual intelligence from the objective universe is sought in the left-hand-path. This amounts to an immortality of the independent self-consciousness moving within the objective universe and interacting with it at will.’
This is contrasted with his definition of the RHP, which is:
“The right-hand path is the path of union with universal reality (God or Nature). When the union is complete the individual self will be annihilated; the individual will become one with the divine or natural order. In this state the ego is destroyed as ‘heaven’ is entered or a nirvana-like existence/non-existence is ‘attained’. This is clearly the goal of all orthodox Judaic, Christian, Islamic, or Buddhistic sects.”
So as I’ve mentioned, I am slightly confused by this definition. The part about the LHP being psychecentric, and the universe being made to harmonize itself with the will of the individual psyche- yeah I get that, that’s pretty self-explanatory and aligns with my own views on the LHP (as described above). However, I don’t understand exactly what is meant by the ‘eternal separation’. Just how literally does Flowers actually mean this? Is the phrase ‘eternal separation’ used hyperbolically, or is he talking about the attainment of some sort of literal, eternal, individuated existence, after death? This may seem daft, but this question has been bugging me for ages now.
As some of you may know, Lady Eva has recently been posting about her contact with Varnaxis., who was a black magician during his lifetime, and now exists in a demonic state that sounds a lot like the eternal separation that Flowers describes in his definition. Lady Eva channeled Varnaxis last week and I asked him about his current state of existence. This was his reply, in case some of you haven’t read that thread:
[i]‘It means that I spitballed and worked together enough self-will and determination to remain intact as a persona past the gates of death - the ULTIMATE trauma, the final wounds - and carried my entirety direct into an existence not bound by physical laws.
This means what my Eva would call “no space, no time” and therefore, close to omnipresent where the point of consciousness is called.
It is sublime. Most die like rabbits, and are reborn willy-nilly.’[/i]
Now personally, I don’t know if this is something that appeals to me, at least at this point. Within, this lifetime, yes, absolutely. I am after as much power and freedom and independence as possible in this lifetime. However, I don’t feel I am anywhere near ready to be making any major decisions regarding the ultimate destiny of my soul/consciousness, and doubt I will be for many lifetimes to come. Eternity, is a really long time, after all, and in all honesty it’s a concept that’s scares the hell out of me. But then again, I realize that I’m thinking about this in very human terms, and that time does not exist the way we perceive it. I think that’s what Varnaxis was getting at when he said he exists in a state of ‘no space, no time’?
Anyway, to sum up, I want to have the best experience while on this planet, in this particular incarnation, as possible. I believe that using occult techniques is the way to achieve this. I want power, freedom, independence, and also- I want to go beyond the normal human experience. I want to experience the very best that existence has to offer. What about after death? Well, I’m not making any decisions about that just yet. For me, this issue is ‘on hold’ for the time being, and in the meantime I hope to gain as much knowledge as possible.
What about you guys?