I am addicted to something. It rules me. It’s my master. Every attempt at quitting has resulted in failure. It’s a coping mechanism. There is no chance in hell I will ever become a god if I’m a freaking self destructive addict. It undermines me at everything I do. It turns me into a zombie sleepwalking through life. It keeps me from reaching my true potential. Only if I quit I can truly become a god. But how?
Get another mechanism, let it settle in your life and try to quit again.
Work with Opfaal, the Angel of Deliverance , from the grimoire Kingdoms of Flame. He has the power to free the mind from addictions.
Opfaal sounds like an angel that can help. Next full moon I will evoke him. Only problem is sensing him. I can scry. Maybe I can evoke him in a black mirror. Opening my third eye right now is too much right now. May be what is necessary but don’t want to lose my mind. Already suffering from depression.
I am struggling too. I’m charming candles during Thursday’s, invoking Hecate to bless the working. I’m also involved in some nature based, shamanic / pagan invocations for healing purposes.
Self regulation and nature will heal you