when I began my journey into the occult I searched for the system that resonated most with me. After getting to know the outer layer of different believes/systems/philosophies I ended up within theistic Satanism, more precisely theistic Luciferianism.
Back then my main source of information was Diane Veras theisticsatanism.com.
Contrary to JoS for example she advocated for getting to know theistic Satanism before making a commitment. Despite feeling a strong urge to do it right away this felt like sensible advice and Ive spent at least 3 years amassing knowledge and refining my beliefs, and I still havent initiated myself.
Now, Im wondering if Im ready. On the one hand Ive done tons of research and I know the general direction I want to go in.
On the other hand there is doubt within me if it is the correct path for me (despite having ruled out all other paths I came across thus far) and that I may still not know enough.
I think its important to note here that Im not gonna do a life-long commitment just now but rather a preliminary one like miss Vera proposes.
Is my doubt unnecessary? Did I do all the preperations necessary? Is my fear just an irrational left over part from my upbringing?
Or is it cautioning me against initiating into the wrong path?
How did you guys knew you were ready to initiate yourselfs? Were you 100% convinced or did you have doubt nevertheless?
What are some hallmarks to look for that can help me with my decision?
Thank you for reading.