So in previous meditations I meditated on the balancing harmony of the elements, their aspects, and those aspects of each I find within myself. Earlier tonight I did my first…ummmmm…invocation of an element and I chose the one I feel the most aligned with, Fire. Let me just say I am GLAD that this forum and this particular topic area exists because HOLY SHIT!
To start: details.
I relaxed. I decided that to amplify the meditation I would listen to fire sounds via headphones. I started the track and took a few deep breaths and got comfortable. Once comfortable I pictured myself immersed in fire. I then began to repeat " I am fire " in my mind. After only aBout thirty seconds of doing so I beGan to quietly vibrate Agni and breath in the Fire essence, sending it back out as I exhale. After just a few breaths I felt I was going into a trance and could feel the fire within me as well as feel it go out as I exhale.
I stopped fairly abruptly because I have NEVER experience a trance like state so quickly and it freaked me out. I mean this all happened withing the span of about 2 minutes! I tried not to just rip myself out of it, I stopped taking in the essence, took a couple of breaths, and stopped the track. I had to go outside in the freezing cold to cool off and gather myself. As soon as I came back into my room I became warm again, still am, and my mouth feels a bit tingly.
Positive notes: I feel pretty good. Energized and more focused ( which is good cuz I have midterm exams to cram for and assignments ts to work on ), hungry but otherwise fine. I suffer from pain due to sports injuries that frequently occurred from early adolescents until about…6 months ago…I’m stubborn… but I don’t hurt all of a sudden.
Negative notes: kinda dissapointed that I freaked out, and worried about possible unknown damage that may have occured.
Now that I know what to expect I plan to try this again when I feel I am prepared for it, but this on top of things occurring that I mentioned in a previous post in the evocation section has me feeling a little overwhelmed. Regardless of this initial nervousness I am obviously making progress in magical working and plan to continue. Any thoughts or advice would be EXTREMELY appreciated.
Good vibes to all ,