Hello, so honestly I’m not new at this but i gave up a long time ago because of many trial and errors and it just made frustrated. So i started when i was 15 stopped when i was 16 and now i’m 17 yes i know why quit in a short time… well i wasn’t confident enough, but now i’m back for more and i’m willing to go on new heights the reason why i got back to magick is… well i had scary experiences, alright this happens almost every night, for the last couple of months an invisible force grabs a hold of me every time i tried to sleep at night and for some reason i can’t move when it gets a hold of me or even talk, at first i got used to it but then it happened, i started hearing voices i heard a woman whisper into my ear, the first time this happened i panicked and got scared i was unable to sleep for days every time i tried to go to sleep it happens again and again i tried communicating although i couldn’t move but nothing seems to work, can someone explain this experience? so basically i’m starting off from the beginning again.
I can’t ask my religious family for help, i was raised in a christian family… and i don’t like being forced, they force me to read the bible and go to church in which i don’t want to. If i try to rebel against their belief they’ll get mad like seriously mad and i’m the only one in my place that believes in magick… how do i know? Living inside a christian compound is a pain in the a-- you know what i mean.
I don’t have friends that’ll help me with secret rituals, so to put it short, i’m a lone wolf that’s seeking for new knowledge and experiences i don’t like being caged trapped inside a world that’s not even real. I wanna know more and learn more.
i deeply thank you for those who are willing to help, and please do excuse my crappy english.