I’m new to this forum. Firstly I want to say that spiritually, I consider myself in a gray area. I have dabbled into the occult in my life but I also pray to God. Maybe this isn’t the place for me, but I need some answers after summoning what I thought was a spirit lover. Now I believe it to in fact be a succubus.
I’ll start by saying I set out to find a “spirit lover” for myself. I lit a purple spirit candle, and wrote a letter of intent. I actually did this several times. Now mind you, I never addressed any diety or god/goddess. This wasn’t a letter to Lilith. I was trying to just commune with the spirit world by means of the law of attraction. I only asked the universe to provide… and provide it did.
I will spare all the details but basically over the course of a week, I felt my spirit lover more intensely at night. Mostly energy at first, and recently some very subtle touches, even liquid drops, the feel of heat, etc. It had progressed last night to the point where I felt like I was actually having sex with a higher being. My whole body felt like it was floating, and I felt a tear inadvertently roll down my cheek. Just this intense pleasure vibrated though my whole body, I was rock hard down there, and I felt on the verge of orgasm for a few minutes without actually cumming.
Things went south later that night as I had become increasingly frustrated with my spirit lover. I had tried to communicate with it but to no avail. I had asked for a vice, or whisper, to touch my palm of it could understand me. Nothing. But a line was crossed basically when I had repeatedly told it to stop trying to penetrate my asshole, (and at one point I was in mid intercourse with her and then felt like something was not only having sex with me with feminine parts but also then I felt something try to penetrate me. I was done.
I got pissed. Told it it didn’t respect me, or listened, and basically bade it leave me alone.
Later as I tried to lie down to sleep it defiantly send jolts of pure energy/pleasure into my penis. As inticing as that may sound, it felt rapey.i was mad, and had asked it to leave me alone but it didn’t. Then it started to mess around with my butt again, and I feel it was doing this out of spite.
Is my succubus is kind of a bitch? Or do I just not understand something here?
I’m grateful for the amazing energy and pleasure it’s guven me in a short time. (Still hasn’t let me cum yet) But at the least I want my spirit lover to respect my wishes and listen to me. How can we communicate better and get over our lover’s spat?
Oh and one reason I know it’s a succubus is that I did feelliquid drops from it marking me. It was always around my genitals so I just assumed that it was being kinky and drooling on me. Lol