Last week I had a dream that was so intense I haven’t been able to shake it. It’s hard to call it a dream because it truly felt like reality. When I woke up I sat there for almost an hour wondering what I’d just experienced. Everything felt so real. It also occurred on the day I ended things with my partner. There was foreshadowing of that in the dream as we were making contact the whole time in the dream. Things ended very similarly to the way they actually happened which was completely unexpected.
It all took place in the house I grew up in. It’s noteworthy to mention while I lived there I was under attack. I’d physically feel things forcing me down, persistently see shadows out of the corners of my eyes, was plagued with disturbing dreams, and constantly felt negative energy. At that time I had left the Catholic Church, but always identified as a “lapsed Catholic.” Spiritually I practiced nothing but believed in a God, heaven & hell.
In my dream I was awoken from my bed. When I looked outside I saw women dressed in gypsy, fae-esque clothing in the yard next to mine. They were giants, 7-9 feet tall maybe. They went around in a circle, fire in the middle, performing some kind of ritualistic dance I believe. There was a man playing a drum which I can still hear in my head. I never saw his face but his shadow. One women drifted off from the crowd and came into my yard, but she was robed in black, again she was quite tall. She stared me straight in the eyes as if she wanted her presence known to me and that she didn’t care she was trespassing. Then she wandered off and disappeared.
I went back to my bed but there was a woman & a man there who were trying to force sexual relations with me. I escaped into another room of my home where I was then encountered by a stunning blonde woman who disrobed and started masturbating in front of me. However I made her leave my home. I could still see her standing naked outside though. She’d left a bag and I gave it to her. She presented me with two shiny items, one pink, one silver. I haven’t the slightest clue what these items were.
My lhp workings so far have included workings with Lilith, Lucifer, & Naamah. Recently I’ve been studying the Qliphoth & working with the four angels of prostitution. I’ve been trying to find whom claims me as well. I feel a kinship to fae. Since I was a child I’ve always been attracted to them. I’m aware of their love for shiny objects. Recently I’ve been gifted by a stranger, found $30, & won money on a lotto ticket. Each incident was followed or preceded by me coming across a very shiny penny.
I’m convinced that all of this is linked somehow but not quite sure how. Any input would be greatly appreciated