Help me read this egg cleanser

Hello BALGs,
It’s been 9 challenging months in 2022. One of the most difficult year of my life. The challenges started since late 2021.
There have been some few good moments which didn’t last long.

All these started after i experienced the best year of my life. Where i actually had control of almost everything in my life financially and every aspect of my life.

So, I did a egg cleansing ritual (with a plastic bottle) and I need you guys help to help me interpret it.

I would also appreciate if you could give insight on how to turn this moments around. It’s been disappointment and lots of missed opportunities.

Most times, i would have waited for the opportunity and immediately i leave, the result would turn out as i wanted. At times, I would lost completely.

Relationship, finances, growth, progression, spirituality, etc