Hey, so yeah, basically what the title says. I tried to hang on but I’m literally googling “how to stop myself from committing suicide” and it’s all because of my mother. Ever since I can remember she never had one good thing to say about me, she thinks I’m less of a person because I’m not super skinny, she doesn’t believe in mental illnesses (aka depression which I suffer from for over a decade now) so all she thinks I am is lazy, dumb and stupid, she doesn’t let me be me, have my own hobbies, I cannot say anything no matter how harmless it is without her yelling at me and insulting me.
I am 28 years old and I don’t have a life, I’m literally in my room trying to fight off suicide thoughts while she is screaming how worthless I am for the past hour.
Unfortunately I am not financially independent to move out, I have an online store that barely makes any profit and I am having absolutely no luck in finding another job.
I don’t know what to do, I’m lost, I’m hopeless, I’m exhausted.
Please help me…