Warning - autistic overshare
lol @E.A told ya I was gonna write one I just thought it was gonna be on fb
I find myself needing to get moved out of my mom’s house (don’t judge me, disabled semisingle mom) quickly. Due to a history of having trouble keeping up with cleaning the house, and my 8 year old having PDA (Pathological Demand Avoidance - basically if someone tells her to do something, if it feels like a demand, she essentiallycan’t do it) in addition to being autistic with ADHD and anxiety….CPS has been super shady and removed my 3 youngest children from my custody (mom technically has custody of my son, and he’s a bulky autistic 16 year old). They are with a temporary care provider that we know until Tuesday, when they will be separated into foster care. I was not told before they went to temporary care that I would not be getting them back when the house was clean
Since they left I’ve been working as much as I can trying to clean, sort, and get rid of as much as I can to try to make it so cleaning will be easier to keep up with - and then I got notified that my mom can’t even get custody if I’m in the house. Super shady shit they didn’t tell me any of this, I heard it from my mom after she talked to the CPS worker.
I have Sitri working on the CPS bit (she volunteered when I pinged every fucking immortal on this and several other planets), and Shub Niggurath is helping with my emotional state (I’ve spent 98% of my awake time dissociating in order to function). I just recently found out Buer is helping with my housing situation, and is prompting me to write this post here. I’m running all of it by them before posting.
I have nowhere to go. I’m willing to be homeless for my children (I’ve been homeless before, I can deal if I have to) but I’d rather not have to. I’m not necessarily asking anyone for a place to stay - I’m going to check the shelter after I’m finished packing. I’m not asking for money. All my bills are paid for the year, other than things like consumables.
My “boyfriend” (using the term loosely, we’re basically snugglebuddies with occasional “benefits”) doesn’t have room for me because he’s a hoarder in a small house. Neither of my local friends have room for other reasons.
I’ll be 40 on October 19. I am autistic with ADHD, anxiety, depression, CPTSD (basically PTSD but from repeated traumas over time), and auditory processing issues…and no sense of smell to speak of, oddly enough. My “Family Planning” medicaid doesn’t cover therapy, so I’ve been doing a lot of work on myself, and recently got the deification done by JS. I’ve had a lot of spiritual help.
I’ve been pathworking the meta since around 1998, and have experimented with my abilities here and there depending on urge and need. I am claircognizant, an Oracle, and majickally eclectic. My natural energy tends to neutralise everything, and if you’re empathic you won’t get a darn thing off of me that you don’t really want to. Shielding is a brilliant invention, and it’s a special skill of mine.
I work a lot with nonphysical people. I do not require enns, meditation, or even more than a moment’s focus to reach out - and sometimes not even that - to essentially any nonphysical person anywhere. I like to consider myself a decent person, so I do respect when they’re busy or otherwise not available.
My abilities tend to focus on the platonic “feel-goods” of others. It’s probably a defensive trauma response thing, but it works for me. I love helping people feel better, especially about themselves. I am feline and vulpine, and a support/healer by nature. My astral form is a polymorph, but the base is a fennec neko kitsune with purple hair and ears, and purple and blue tails. I do my own version of “human evocation” in that form. I’m an equal opportunity Oracle - all nonphysical people are just people to me. Some more powerful than others, all of them look different, but it’s just whatever. They’re still people.
I am super fucking open, and autistic overshare is obviously a thing…don’t ask me anything you don’t actually want to know.
I’m sorry the post is a bit scattered, I have no idea what sort of help to actually expect anyone to be able to give…but I generally try to go with what I’m #spiritled to do. Mahalo for reading this far! I’m trying to get all my belongings down to a large bin, my large suitcase, my computer, and my staff. After posting this I will get back to it.