My experiences here may be different from yours, but I think we share some similarities. I haven’t read your other post btw, but here’s my two cents.
First of all, you don’t need to worry about “soul consumption” or anything like that. You initiated these spiritual processes, and you remain in-charge. It’s true that allowing the process to unfold as it will is important, but remember that your aim is to bring about positive transformation to your self, your life, and the world around you.
In order to bring about this transformation, you must change. What you currently are must give way, so that something new and better can take its place. This is what we refer to when we speak of “spiritual consumption,” images of death and rebirth, or of a personal Apocalypse (the original Greek word meaning “revelation”). I’ve had experiences of being consumed by the Leviathan, the great beast of the Sea, Demon King of Water, and I’ve heard others share similar experiences with various beings.
While the first step in the process, destruction, can be frightening, it is all for the best. Undesirable aspects of your self and situations in your life that hold you back need to be removed and replaced with something better. By doing so, you are able to reach your full potential, to push the boundaries of what you would otherwise be able to experience and attain in this incarnation.
This is why fully letting go and allowing the spirits to guide you is important. You likely do not know what holds you back, or if you do, you may currently lack the strength to change. The spirits will work wonders in this regard. At times, change will come to you quite easily, with little effort. Other changes may be more difficult, but through it all the spirits will guide and support you.
Now, the “black brother” bit. Speaking from my experience, I suspect that you may have much to gain from continuing with darker magick, for the time being at least. Upon reaching the Abyss, you have two options for how to cross it - the path of Light, or the path of Shadow, or in other words, the Sephiroth or the Qliphoth, or some may say, the path to Wholeness, or the path to Knowledge. There is a third way, though few would aspire to Nothing, when they have the choice. Too many others need assistance, and there is unending wisdom.
In truth, either path will lead you to Light, though their routes differ. The angels will bathe you in eternal loving Light, while the demons will reveal to you that from infinite Darkness, Light may shine forth.
I’ve experienced spiritual cycles with both, and both have revealed different sorts of wisdom about my self, and about reality. Some will say that the path of the black brother (or sister, or what have you) is one of corruption and spiritual ignorance, but I disagree. There is much to gain from both paths, the Dark and the Light.
That being said, it does seem that different people require different amounts of work in either path to reach their true potential, to heal their pasts, and to attain their deepest satisfaction. If your spiritual guides have suggested dark magick, I would trust them. What awaits you is not corruption, but illumination.
Many of our fears do indeed await us on this dark path, as that is where many lie. Be bold, and overcome your fears.
A glorious life awaits you when you do.
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