Hello,
I am new here and I thought this might be a good place to maybe ask for some guidance after some searching. I saw this was also to ask for help for people that are new, but please let me know i need to move it somewhere else.
Sorry for the long read below, but I thought it best to include the experience that led me to this experience :).
To tell you a brief about myself, magic and the supernatural I have always taken with a grain of salt. Especially with the nonsensical shows we have out there that do not help. I am 42/M and have zero magic experience and yet somehow i find myself here.
I always do try to keep an open mind, even though I grew up Christian. I never was fully sure if that was a path that was right and haven’t really followed anything religious or spiritual in a long while. I have friends in astrology, and found out it may because I am a Virgo and I have a logical mind or something along those lines. but I have always been fascinated with the different religions, etc especially witchcraft like wicca, but was always too cautious to never practice or try anything like a ritual or spell. Even though i was unsure if its real, i thought it best out of respect not to mess with it.
Now on my to the thing i need advice on.
This last month or so I have been feeling, like this pull towards something and like something is missing. I have felt this way for a while, but recently something personal happened which made it more noticeable. During all this I would wake up at night like usual but instead could not fall back asleep. Usually this happened between 1-3am, for a few weeks. Feeling restless, empty, like I need to do something, etc. nothing to intense, more like it felt like that feeling you couldn’t remember something and it was pissing you off y’know? Lol. My mind is always on the go, but this was different.
But trying to figure out ways to sleep eventually my thought process settled on “Succubus”. I assumed because I know succubus and sleeping is related based on lore I have read, but also because the ritual recommended around the time I usually get up at night. which I thought was interesting. So curiously I searched and eventually came across this website, but also the ritual on the wordpress site succubuslove on how to summon a succubus. As I read the ritual on both sites that’s when something just clicked “this is it”. After some studying the ritual, looking at risks, etc for a couple weeks I decided to go against my prior thought process and eventually performed it last night.
It was really strange, as I never got that cautious feeling and just only a pull that it would be ok, which I never felt before whenever I read any of these things before. Maybe a trick?
Issue is I am unsure of the results. did it fail? Did I accidentally anger Lillith with my inexperience? Lots of thoughts going in my head. But let me start by how I performed the ritual as it may help.
I did it around midnight as this was just the best time for me and I read others had successful experiences even early in the morning. so, I figured as long as I could clear my mind and focus it would be ok. I prepared for a couple hours and smoked weed, as it helps me relax and open up and listened to music to emulate the positive outcome I sought in this ritual. Unsure if that was good or not, but doing this helps me relax and clear my mind.
I prepared my letter ahead of time, to organize what exactly I was looking for. But I manually wrote it, pouring intent in my words as much as I could, even wrote extra that came out of nowhere which surprised me.
At this stage I forgot to light the candle, so I lit it really quick since the ritual only pointed out I needed to be quick when consecrating the letter with my blood, so I assumed it would be fine.
I stated the recommended ritual on the wordpress site and then immediately put drops of blood on the letter, lit it on fire, and let it burn in the metal tin I had as I did not have a bowl. It burned pretty quickly, so I sat there for roughly 15 minutes paying attention to my surroundings.
I think I felt like minor pressure on my back and arm here and there, but I did not notice much. But to make sure to not think I was being rude, I said thank you anyway, as it did feel strange. So, at this stage I was tired and ready for bed. So, I went ahead and closed the ritual exactly as stated on the wordpress site, blew out the candle and went to bed.
I did notice my heart beat rapidly like I was excited for something when I was lying there, and I thought I felt pressure around my chest area but I am unsure. But I did try to keep a welcoming and open presence while focusing on the desires in my letter.
So, not really sure where to go from here honestly. The only thing I know for sure is I do not have a bad feeling; I still feel this excitement feeling in my chest that’s hard to explain whenever I think about it, but I feel like it’s a good feeling and this is still the right path which has been consistence throughout. I know i am healthy so its not physical.
But I still thought it would be a good idea to get some advice, as even though I feel this way. I truly hope I did not anger anyone or fell into something, as that really was not my intention as i am aware of the possible negative outcomes of this so figured the more info i have the better.
anyway, sorry for the long read. Thank you in advance for any guidance or advice.
