Hello everyone, my name is Nikolāvs (Nicolas / Nicholas) but you may call me Nick. I am 17 years old and I live in the small European country of Latvia.
I do not consider myself new to magick. I have lurked on this forum for a couple weeks now, read a couple of books on magick, and dabbled in some energy work/sigil magick.
There are many things in my life which I hope to change, hopefully with magick. I just don’t know where to start on them.
One, I have the disease called Cerebral Palsy. It is an incurable disease which affects muscle development. Because it is incurable with medicine, I wish I could cure it with magick, but I don’t know where to begin or if it is even possible. Invoke Arch Angle Rapheal? President Marbas? Shapeshifting/Alcemy? Reiki? I am willing to learn, and I don’t care if it takes months or years, because all I really want is to cure myself of this horrible disease and be able to live a normal. I’m missing out on everything around me because I am wheelchair bound and can’t walk, stand, or use my legs at all. I am a burden on my family because they pay half their salary on nurses for me because I can’t do much on my own. I just want to live like everyone else.
I’m also deaf (common side effect of cerebral palsey) very short (148cm / 4’10’’), and have some form of mild autism. So I also want to find some spell that can cure deafness, mentel illness, and gain some height.
So yeah, I am just a sick kid who wishes being normal.
Also, I am greatly fascinated by music related occult stories. Such as the story of Robert Johnson who met a demon at a cross road to get guitar skills. Or Niccolo Paganinni, who sold his soul to Satan for the greatest violin talents. I would like to try this someday, just to see if it works (I want to have instant skills too)
So yeah, that is all 
Sorry for English, I never learned it properly ( I never went to school ).